xMEElo

2009-12-26T15:04:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY & MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ME~
it was yesterday though, forgotten to blog about it.
i got my small small birthday party on 24th dec o9.
only a few people were invited. thanks alot and love them for coming(:
they were the sweetest thing, i felt happy.
well was quite a boring party, actually.
just chi-chatting with my Ns friends and drinking too!
laughs alot. thanks to penguin and skull-head bro!
must thanks to my lovely cousin and her bf, phill.
thanks mireen for coming and suprised me without telling me she brought present.
Last of all, thanks to Shiru the great for coming and her friends.
although jiawei and nic not able to make it but they came all the way down to my house to pass me my birthday present. really touched though, love you guys! it's a lovely mug, will use it to drink from now on (:
thanks skull head brother, calvin leow for buying me a bottle of chivas!
My cousin brought me a pair of boxing gloves, so cool! (: thanks anthea for the right boxing glove and thanks cyrus for the left boxing glove HA! that's was a cute idea though. OH and the green jacket too. make me look like a total boxer (:
thanks mireen for suprising me and gave me a nice top~ i got about 2-3 tops from you. woo :X
will be wearing it out to show u next time. the tibit's great (:
lastly thanks shiru the great for staying out late night to make this puzzle, just anyhow said i want a puzzle in my room. those sweets n choco is great too (:
THANKS EVERYONE FOR WISHING ME TOO!
LOVE ALLS!

loves, chris.

2009-12-06T09:22:00.003+08:00

Christmas's coming!
which is my bday, ohya! it's my bday, ohhhh, it's my bday~~ woo
cant wait for that day to come, seriously.
how i wish i was oversea during my bday. well right now im in Ns.
my parent promise me to bring me go oversea where places i wanna go during christmas after my Ns. well there's tonns of places i wanna go, im greedy :X
like japan, korean,hong kong, germany[see the world largest christmas tree]
haa alot more~
i have alot of thing i wan this year, santa u willing to give to me? santa pls (:
-romances
-gucci belt
-nice tops/btms
-alot of $$
-go back to the past
-alot more!
wahahah, im greedy ya!

right now, my mum's fren son is staying at my house last night. kinda fun. i let him watch 海派甜心. a dam nice show, u all should watch it too. i cant wait for the next espi. hmm, later going chruch with my mum as promise last week. go bring my sister to see if she enjoy over there. well i will blog more if can.

Chris, loves (:

2009-11-08T16:37:00.003+08:00

mm veri long never post alr.
suddenly, have to urge to post something up. it's random!
i miss alot of my old frens, old life. i know i have change my attitude to worst.
im mending my attitude now, i wanna be a happy-go-lucky boy tat i used to be.
a guy tat ppl respect, a guy tat have alot alot of frens.
right now, thanks to my attitude. i been lifeless with little frens, little outing.
but i believe tis will change for the better!
as i m going to have a new start, new change.

there's another issue i been having trouble with, saving money is hard, veri hard.
is like i jus cant save money n spend more den i earn.
i dk hw to hold back, dk hw to save.
y is saving so hard for me ):
need help $@#$%#$^$^# ahhhhhh.

later bookin in back to camp again.
life's sux. sat book out, sun book in.
really sux to the cord.
i jus have to endure 2more weeks of driving training n once i pass my tp.
way i go out of the course n become a real army driver.
excited abt it as i can get free class 3,4 lics.
my ah pa also promise to buy me a car, but i doubt will be a car i dream of.
well at least better den nth lols.

-Chris

2009-09-17T13:44:00.003+08:00

IM ROTTING AT HOME, SOMEONE SAVE ME? OHHH MYYYYYYYYYY!
BEEN ROTTING AT HOME, reason cos no money $.$
dam, money has been a issue to me since i went army.
when the fk did i start spending so much money OHHHH MYYYYYYYYY!
i guess i need to work on my saving plan b4 i end up using up all my saving plan.
*pray* my mum nt even giving me a single cent le.
i cant possible keep take money from my dad also. sian !!!!!!!!!!!!!
dk wat to do. HELP ME AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~ anyone?
im jus bored (:

2009-09-11T01:12:00.004+08:00

This post is just some thoughts that came through my mind.

There's alot of first time in our life, without first time i guess life wont be tat exciting anymore
e.g first time ride bicycle, first time r/s, first time patch back with ex, first time.. alot more. ya i did alot of first time in my life too.
well let me name some first time to u ppl (:
-first time bring someone to a restuarant
-first time french kiss yet nv naughty
-first time bring someone to eat ice-cream
-first time,.. alot more.
i cant tink of any other first. will update when i rmb anything else. there's alot more!

feeling is a veri magical thing, no matter wat tat person do, good or bad, ugly or handsome,tall or short, all these dun matter when u have feeling for tat person. feeling come n goes, may stay may nt. so grab every chances u get, dun regret later on. no matter hw good u be to someone, no feeling mean nth. even that person is a blockhead or jerk, have feeling still wins all. love is like bullshit, i seriously duno wat's love. it like getting further away from me, i guess i nt meant to be a lover? laughs* everytime i gonna fall inlove, things change. make me fking lose trust in love. hongster nv die, this term really really meaningful. well i jus hope 1 day i will see my princess too. amazing but true, i have been single for 2 years alr. it's like wow, up till now i still cant believe myself. Chris, u really single for 2 years i asked. haha(:

ytd is cyrus bday! (:
today is jia wei bday ! (:
woo HAPPY BDAY UH ! may ur wish come true. it's waste tat we nv have a cousin gathering uh cyrus. alright will have another chance. ha (:
later going out with jiawei, nic,bc. hope it's fun. (:

i seriously hate my face now, grow alot of pimple. or nt, they call it agnes or wat. dk hw to spell.
alot like cover my whole cheek. so zz! make me sian diao. go out face ppl also no confident le.
pray my face will recover n nv like tis again. *prays*

alright i gonna slp soon, tata`
nights all.
loves.

2009-06-28T16:55:00.002+08:00

bookin soon later at around 8plus.
nth much i do during book out. bored like fk.
life is so boring. i crave more attention from some frens yet they even choose to avoid me.
duno wat the fk i do also. wateva, if u dun wanna be my fren den so be it.
inside army already. more n more thing is different too.
well there's nth i can do but wait.
tata`

2009-06-12T22:42:00.005+08:00

Well today is the last day b4 i enlist to army.
tml have to wake up at 7am to get ready. leaving hse at 8am. so fking early -.-
jonathan bro will be coming over to my hse tml at 8am n my dear cousin will fetch us go there.
so sweet of them <3. love them lots.
today i went to meet my po at 12plus, kena scolded by him cos i din wear long pant. lols
he still tok to me nicely duno y. after leaving mycs it's 1plus already.
cab down to jiawei hse at tamp n he cook for me magi mee LOL
nt bad uh, nice le~~ yummy. after tat bus down to hougang there play pool
WTF, i lose to jiawei lol. i win 4 game, he win 5. n out of the 5, 3 is i hit wrong hole for black ball.
dam shit. zz shiru came after we played quite awhile. she tis idiot. keep steal our cue n anyhow play like a noob LOL :X n we finished pool n meet nick at hougang mrt.
went over to sergaoon garder chomchom to makan(:
it was raining heavily. n i run over to chomchom without anythin to cover. sherleen saw me at the bus stop, keep oi me but i din reply lol. it was dam dumb. so i went back to bus stop to find her n walk to chomchom again. wahahaha eat alot of good stuff sia. chicken wing~ carrot cake~ stingray~ lala~ poor nick have to pay so much yet he cant eat much cos he allergic to spicy-ness. HAHA so next time wan eat his food. jus put some spicy stuff can le. im so bad~
ok took bus with sherleen n them back to amk inter. sherleen meeting her fren for movie at amk hub. so i leave amk inter after awhile. well that's my day. i love tat dinner <3

there's thing i wanna say b4 i enlist.
dear mummy, take care uh. though u nt reading my blog but jus wanna say ur a great mother but like having depression tinking like tat. always tink so far so worst.

kerina mummy, take care uh. i wil come to meet u if i can, or call u de. support zhen decison ba, i believe money is nt everything without happiness.

kolyn zhen, take good care of urself. drink more water den ulcer will disappear. ur lips is dry too. thanks for the sweet entry, im melting. u better get into the hairstylist course hor, if nt i whack ur pipi. hopefully, all the best n pray all ur decison u made is a right one. loves.

Sherleen, bitch take good care of urself. u have low sugar level, eat every meal uh. dun keep skip meal, nt good for health. im happy tat u nv change but hope ur fine n all the best n wished i m nt wrong abt u again. happy 2 years anni. 13th june. ur always making ppl worry sia, where u le? phone nt on somemore. wonder if ur fine. dun be like the past. suddenly disappear den nv inform anything. loves

mireen dear, takecare of urself. keep going on for ur dancing n singing, ur great. wish to see u popular 1 day. woo~ loves

gillian chubby gal, takecare uh. got stead liao dun wan meet me for dinner last day somemore.
dam bo xim sia. last long with ur stead. haa

larry, gay ah. hopefully i can see u next year. i sure gonna miss u. takecare

to the rest tat i din mention name, nt tat u have been forgotten. just tat i din have much time left to post. mus get ready for army stuff le. loves all <3
all the best in everything.
[edited]

2009-06-10T22:10:00.003+08:00

i dun sleep well for like 2days already. mayb too anxious that im going to be enlisting army tis coming sat. ohmy, i still haven ready prepare yet. hmm ok lets see wat i do today.
i wake up around 7-8plus, go out with my parent to buy alot of stuff for my army at beach road, den go fetch my mei from sch. reach home around 12-1plus. starting, kinda lazy to meet gillian cos i fall asleep on my comfy bed. after tat, finally decide to meet gillian n sherleen at bishan j8. i with gillian awhile till sherleen came. kena force by gillian to kup with her cigg when i dun even smoke!
dam her assh0le. went to watson to buy my army stuff n sherleen came. shocking uh, she change quite alot. slack at aracde awhile n gillian have to go meet her bf at searagoon. we will like stealing sherleen from each other like tat haha. in de end i won~ sherleen stay with me till 8plus haha.
we went prawning, OMG la it dam fun lol. i caught 4 prawn n she caught 5. damit :X
next time will wanna go prawning again. woo~ n im suprise tat tis coming sat is our 2 year anni if we din break. haha, thanks for today, enjoyed alot. 13th is a good number(:

2009-06-06T16:37:00.002+08:00

i find tis song veri meaningful (:

Oh no
Take what you need 'cause I can't hold my breath
Say what you feel 'cause I got nothing left, oh
I made a promise to myself last night
I'm gonna keep it if it's wrong or right

And if I lose it all
There'll be nothing left to lose and I would take the fall
'Cause knowing you are out there breathing
It's so wonderful, it's a chance I take even if I break it
I lose it all, if I lose it all
Wouldn't matter anyway

Don't change a thing, perfect as you are
Time has a way, time is all I've got
If my heart should shatter watching you
That'd be one less thing I'd have to prove

And if I lose it all
There'll be nothing left to lose and I would take the fall
'Cause knowing you are out there breathing
It's so wonderful, it's a chance I take even if I break it
I lose it all, if I lose it all

Heaven will be waiting when I fall into your open arms
I believe you'll find me there
You'll find me there

And if I lose it all
There'll be nothing left to lose and I would take the fall
'Cause knowing you are out there breathing
It's so wonderful, it's a chance I take even if I break it
I lose it all, if I lose it all

And if I lose it all
There'll be nothing left to lose and I would take the fall
'Cause knowing you are out there breathing
It's so wonderful, it's a chance I take even if I break it
I lose it all, if I lose it all
Wouldn't matter anyway

2009-06-04T20:03:00.007+08:00

today woke up around 11plus, prepared myself and i went to zhen's house.
she was still deeply asleep when i reach, so i used her com n msn. had a chat with aileen and ritche. hmm waited for abt 2 hrs, n she finally woke up. After she smoked and get prepared, the journey begins.
Arriving at marina barrage, what i can say is that it is a really great place. Beautiful scenery with cooling breeze. i felt very relaxed when i was at there. well sorry guys, tat i din take any foto cos the view was so nice n i was too engrossed in enjoying the scenery, so i forgotten :X i ordered mac n we eat together on the mat i brought. after tat, cabbed to aljunid n pei her walk to the bus stop as she was going cresent to find ritche, jun n aileen.
hmm tat's all i guess for today.

hmm it may seemed tat you have made a choice between us. if you really tink tat you have made the right choice, i will give you my blessing. Even though you're trying to cheer up everyone, i know that you're suffering inside. I dont want to make you feel bad. no matter who you choose in de end, you will still be forever my best buddy n the most impt person in my heart. This is the fact that won't be changed
feeling is a magical thing, it comes n goes, grows n fades. its hard to explain, hard to understand.
if there's a day when you're willing to come back to me, i'll still be there for you. Thanks for the hug you gave me today. The last time that i hugged you, i decided to leave your world. The one that you gave me today, i'll symbolised it as the start of our friendship. i know u dun wan me to leave ur world either. You don't need to feel bad today,as it my fault for not being entertaining enough for you. A really amazing place, but with the wrong person i guess.
withloves-
buddy.

2009-05-31T21:03:00.003+08:00

Whoever's reading tis blog. HELLO!
today rot at home doing nth. chiong a show call 转角遇到爱. it's dam freaking funny n nice.
i keep laughing, well it enlighten me abit on how to love a person n more(:
loving a person u need to be confident, i add in trust. u need to trust that person.
finally finish another show. i guess not much nice show left for me to watch already.
gonna be real bored. i left 2weeks till i go army.
within tis 2weeks, i wish i could spend more time with you alone, my best buddy.
oh forget to announce to everyone, i have a loveable buddy name kolyn lim(:
240208 is the date that i get to know her, or should i say together with her.
it been 1 year 4 mths 7 days 21 hrs 9 mins n counting that we know each other. laughs*
will keep going on forever n ever. regardless ur single or attached, skinny or fat, ugly or pretty, tall or short, i made a promise to my life that i will take care of u and ur family no matter wat.
i mean what i say n i do wat i say. even i in army camp, u can always text me a msg if u need help. i will see when i book out i do my best to help u. all the best in life!

tata`

2009-05-31T01:20:00.003+08:00

Hello earthling,
going army soon in june 13. well gonna botak soon, will look more ugly den now ba.
shagg lo, i duno wat i tinking. greedy i suppose. really duno like in the maze. zz
hmm tml going to run i guess at 8am. nth to post le ba.
tata`

2009-05-28T23:25:00.003+08:00

Hmm today wake up around 10plus. suppose to be meeting my po at 11.30am.
but i lazy go so i slack at home watching tv till around 12plus.
den leave hse n take cab over to find zhen. After that, went Tamp mall with Zhen n mummy.
Had quite a fun time together, we were half shopping half going to starhub settle the moderm thing. Pei them eat mac, den take bus back home. Zhen n me was like wearing couple wear like tat. both wear white top white btm with slipper lols. haha
After back home, awhile nia. zhen was trying on her pant n top tat she bought jus now at tamp
den go down meet jun le. ritche n ailing also came awhile later.
den i went home by bus after slacking awhile with them.
when taking 169, i saw 1 baby DAM FKING CUTE LA <3 gosh. looks cute n open mouth de LOL
i love baby <3 laughs*
kk end blog.
tata`

2009-05-25T02:32:00.003+08:00

hmm i remember once i wished tat
1. meelo wish tat kolyn lim can be wif mattew lee foreva i left 2 more wishes . next time gt chance den i tink abt wat i wan ba (:i dun care i need to do hw much thing , ur smile can change my world . i do hope u will always smile .
but first wish is gone for good. i hope u dun pester her anymore.

i left 2 wishes.
now i wish tat, ur smile n laughter can always maintain on ur face kolyn. i read back the past post. found out i have change alot of thing. sorry for always makin u piss off yet u forgive me all along. well maintain ur smile n laughter ba x33s. hope u find ur mr.right.

lastly,
i wished everyone tat's concerning, loving me to be healthy n happy. all the best to all of them!
love them all(:

2009-05-24T14:15:00.004+08:00

Im not in the right mood now, duno wat im tinking right now.
the feeling i have within me, is far from wat i have expected.
out of all ppl, why why why! i dun understand.
Don't u even bother about my feeling? Don't u know how much it hurt to find out the truth? It's hurt badly. totally feel like dying.
I really din expect things to turn out tis way, my six sense telling me something's wrong but i jus din go check cos i trusted u.
Wat can i do to satafisy u? Why wateva i do, seems pointless in ur eye.
give me some advise will you? stop trying to hide thing from me.
i know i may tink alot, but if u hide from me n i found out. i tink alot more.
at least i can be understanding if ur truthful to me.
well i will cover all ur mistake. im jus worried about u.
i dun know wat's the reason, but i wont blame u, jus clearify with me. im happy enuff
hope u enjoy ur day.
[edited]

2009-05-22T16:22:00.004+08:00

Hmm ytd went to play pool with kolyn n junhui.
i left my ic over there. shit lol!
today went to bugis fushion to take back my ic. dam boliaos sia.
but it's a whole new experience. i nv been alone in bugis b4.
so i walk 1 big round reach si ma lu. the temple there, go in baibai.
den walk back to the bus stop to wait for bus. while waiting,
i saw my sec sch sell drink de stall owner. he came to me, n say hello.
i was shocked lol, he still rmb me haha(:
after tat went home.

well kinda disappointed, i called 10 ppls, all cannot make it to bugis to pei me.
in de end after i reaching my place, 1 of them called me n say can pei me cos end sch. lols. well thanks you, is alright already.
seems like my phone contact abit useless. cannot jio them out de hhaa.

u must be sleeping now, never ans my phone call.
sorry if i attitude u jus now, cos u last min say lazy dun wan go. bomb me.
hmm takecare ba, dearest LOL (:

2009-05-17T15:26:00.003+08:00

Ytd night was nt bad. 2 ppls came calling me. 1st around 12plus, Tyzal came calling me asking me wanna play mahjong anot, near my place at his fren hse. i cant so i went back to slp. 2plus, kolyn came calling me asking me for dota or something. i cant really hear properly, was in the sleeping mood. well i get up to the com n msn her to recomfirm wat she wanna ask. yup is dota i guess but she ask me go back slp. so went back to slp again. 6plus i wake up out of a sudden, n cant get back to slp.
bopian, watched 2 espi of movies n prepare go out for morning run.
well first time, i run until vomit n still i find the training worth while.
i going to run with them till i go in army. well my stamina sure can bulid up.
im rotting at home now, anyone wanna go out ? ;D can contact me.

i will update anything else if there's something to update. well
tata` loves.

2009-05-16T02:44:00.003+08:00

i guess it time for me to post alr ba (:
if nt my blog really rotting le.
well my feeling now , there's high n low .
You are like a terroist , just awhile your already taking big steps crossing the borderline into my heart . laughs*
when ur nt around , i will tend to worry abt ur safety , wonder wat ur doing .
when ur with me , i always feel like being the 1 entertaining u .
i duno wat i have been changing into but i know it's cos of u .
i feel like taking care of u , seeing u smile is my greater thing in life .
now u should be enjoying urself with ur fren in east coast , night cycling .
take good care of urself , i dun wan anything to happen to u .
seriously i dun have to tink so much , cos if ur happy im happy .
i know my own limits , i know where i stand in ur heart .
no matter wat , at least im a fren to u . i dun crave for more since i m offically enlisting army soon . there's nth much i can do or say since u scare of being lonely . i guess by the time i finish bmt , ur already in ur holidays , finishing ur N's . well i duno how to write a sweet proper english but tis post is my heart-felt words .

Recently,
i been always staying at home. doing nth, well i guess i mus do something n plan for my life nt rotting at home anymore. so i decide to go out with my bro later to buy running shoes. i going to bulid up my stamina for army. later on going out with my bro n his poly fren to watch movie. well i'll see how it goes (:

alitte of me,
i have change my mind. opening out myself for all. well i dun wanna close up myself anymore. though i really miss having alot alot of frens but now seems like alot of ppl are disliking me already. well i hope to change a new image toward them. well wish me luck.

2009-05-04T23:31:00.004+08:00

Hi all ,
life's boring. i din really go work alr.
my daily routine is like facing the com, eat, sleep, or go out to meet kolyn.
well, i really dk wat's wrong with my life. wat i really wan in my life?
i know i cant demand anything right now since im going army soon.
it's nt easy. everytime every moment, ur every actions or words were always in my heart n it remind in there forever.
i really wanna quit tis tinking of mine, put it to rest. im learning, slowly.

wat is going on? i m a boring person, i really wan to enterain u but sometimes i jus dk wat to say, suddenly blank in my mind. i really love you n wanna take good care of u regardless wat u have become. im dam happy when u sent me a goodnight msg. it's like finally u sent ! woo haas. i know my attitude n understanding problems, im slowly changing.

love is nt abt finding someone u can live with_ but is finding someone u cant live without. i really find tat my life without you is meaningless.
love is nt how u make it happen at start, but how u maintain n improve the feeling for the lifetime. i will prove to everyone tat i m tiongxim to 1 , tat's u <3
i feel like annoucing to the whole world, I LOVE YOU KOLYN LIM! <3
ok my mind went blank again, i jus hope to get another chance when i can care for u. love u lots <3

2009-04-27T22:13:00.005+08:00

ai ni bu yong li you, ke yi bang ni wo ye hen kai xin <3
spending time with you, hoping to see you happy everyday.
sorry tis 2 days, i wasn't really toking much.
glad i spend my days with you <3

though i din slp for the whole day, but looking at u falling asleep, i feel dam happy alr(: like gt a xin fu feeling like tat HAHA :X
glad u enjoy the perfume though u nv show it out.
i enjoyed the mee u cooked (:
dun regret wat u decide to do, all the way kolyn lim !
u can pass ur n's.

all i need is ur care n concern, but seems like u totally nt interested in me.
i feel dam fkup, useless. find topic chat also veri hard. i may have alot of thing to say but once i see a reply den majiam nth to tok abt alr. i dk wat i do u gt put inside ur heart anot. i mayb happy go lucky, but i may go burst too. i dislike u treat me as usual. contacting u by msg/call/msn u gt mood reply no mood no reply. u say i nv tell u hw i feel, now i tell u. i know u dislike me tink alot, but sometime wat u say or do, gib ppl mistaken. sorry i jus feel like complaining.
[edited]

2009-04-22T08:33:00.002+08:00

Everytime i close my eye, first time i see is u.
Whenever ur nt around or offline in msn, i will tend to feel urgrent.
i know ur moodless so u sometime wont even bother to reply msgs/calls.
We know each other for quite sometime too. I really stand no place in ur heart uh?
No diff den others boys? ohwell, even mummy also like tat.
Each time im anxious of ur reply, ur chatting happily with others.
there's was a time when i put mattew as my idol. laughs*
but now i dun. i miss those swee swee moment we been through together.
senting goodnight msg, senting friendster comment,calling each other n chat through the nights, spending the time together in lan shop. where almost every single day i will be around helping out.
Each time i see u, ur in a diff mood. like mayb sch's teacher is annoying,
or ur sleepy. i will help u out to tend the shop while u go to slp beside me (:
i duno y my feeling for u is stil there after so long when i know so much abt u.
though i tink there's alot more stuff i duno from u. ya chatted on fone wif u last 2 days, it's veri fun n i enjoyed spending my time with u. no matter is a few min or a few hrs. each time i will cherish it. iloveyou <3 i really do.
i wil go to slp eariler cos it's bring me closer to u(:
idiot muacks muacks ! LOL <3

2009-04-16T01:17:00.003+08:00

hmm my room after raining gt alot of bug on the floor -.-
stupid lol. ask my maid to clear it for me, den i play dota awhile with kolyn n jun.
train kolyn awhile den i went to watch fast n furious.
nth much finish should be slpping alr ba.

im so stupid nt to cherish u in the past, letting u go n get hurt..
now i wan u back, it's nt going to be a easy task.
iloveyou n i really do. no matter wat u have abit feeling for me im happy alr.
from the start i know u, i alr fall for u deeply. i really miss the past where we always hang out together, ur world onli have me. my world onli have u. though now it's impossible n tat's onli my selfish tinking. the feeling den was so real as i even tot of marriaging. i know u make a vow to ur mum. if it takes another 3 years i dun mind waiting. no matter wat i will wait. u always say ppl who know u better will nt choose u but i know u well yet im choosing u, i tink jun also know u well. y bother to care wat other ppl tink. u know u urself can alr. i also say b4 no one wan u, i wan u no matter wat. i mean it. i have been keeping tis promise till now. if after reading it, ur going to ignore me so be it, cos i jus wanna let u know my feeling tat has been hiding from everyone. i jus hope i still have something tat interest u. all the best in 2009 (:

-it jus make me abit piss when my stuff given to u nt being cherish/lost/throw away.
but i will be fine after all. i hope my stuff is at least abit impt to u.i know it nt totally ur fault. nvm i jus complaining onli.

2009-04-14T10:15:00.003+08:00

Hello all !
i now working, but veri bored so i decided to blog something.
all along so many mths alr, i tot i have get over it.
somehow sometime i still feel uneasy n jealous.
but i guess fate is playing with me, i never get over it.
my feeling is increasing yet i know tat once again i may get hurt.
i been veri confuse, dun dare to take another step forward n
been tinking alot alot. Y is meelo so useless, y after so long still
cannot forget! tinking abt tis weekend...
makes me wanna burst my brain alr but it's going to be a test for myself.
ohwell, from the start i alr accepted wateva she has done in the past,
i guess in the future or the present now, i will still accept it.
it's been quite sometime since i keep blogging alr. well i jus wan feeling
to let out after keepin inside myself for so long. i jus hope tis useless me
will make a decision whether to get over it n move on or really put my heart into
asking back...
mayb i shouldn be selfish cos im going army soon. i jus wan her to be happy, i will be fine too. i tink im jus a person secretly staying beside ... den im happy alr.
all the best ! (:

i suddenly rmb mummy say tat time in lan shop, tiongxim de guys all die alr.
haas, i still believe no matter guys flirt outside, every guys know tat in their heart, there will sure to be someone impt for them n they will eventually return to tat person. there's still tiongxim guy. same goes to gal.

2009-04-13T16:52:00.003+08:00

ok i blogging abt ytd.
nth much slp at around 4am plus cos using com n chatting on fone (:
den wake up around 11 plus. prepare bath n went out alr.
went to kolyn's hse n she was still sleeping like a log :X
so i play wif gucci ! <3 den watch tv. gucci keep bite me ):
after tat help mummy buy cigg.
she wake up 1 hrs later n prepare another 1 hrs. so waited for 2 hrs.
big shot hor :X
but nvm la at least i dun mind waiting =p
after tat went out to ps, bought jackie chan de movie ticket at 6.50pm.
den went to subway makan. yummy ! half half the meal lols.
after tat we went to bugis new shopping mall n found out nth to do there.
so walk around n went back ps.
sitted at the sofa for abt 20 mins n went into the movie.
after finishing the movie, i found out it a 2 hrs show alr 8.50pm.
so rush to take cab, den while waiting finally the next cab will be our turn.
a bloody black came n jus took the cab when there's a few more ppl waiting in the line behind me. shyt tat black! so no manners. somemore is a family man! zzz
den i sent kolyn to old changi area there, n i went home.
enjoyed alot ytd (: hope ur enjoying too.
[edited]

mayb im tinking too much but i hope wat im tinking is nt true.
hais ):

2009-04-08T20:07:00.002+08:00

Rights, this is definitely a fact-

'Whatever you give a woman, she will make greater. '

If you give her sperm, she'll give you a baby.
If you give her a house, she'll give you a home.
If you give her groceries, she'll give you a meal.
If you give her a smile, she'll give you her heart.
She multiplies and enlarges what is given to her.
So, if you give her any crap, be ready to receive a ton of shit.'

[taken from mireen blog (: ]
jus for laughs*

hope my joke brighten up ur days. logical somemore!
my life has been jus working working working!
no going out n stuff. i wonder who will jio me out lols (:
anyone? :D

2009-03-14T06:01:00.003+08:00

Look at the time!
Wow, i wake up so early? nahs.
my mum came in my room around 3plus asking me to bring her go see doc
see her in so much pain, my heart also pain.
takecare mummy! ur wonderful mum(:
So i bring her to chong pang de 24hrs clinic, abt 4plus back home.
Try to slp but i jus cant! arghh.
i was too bored so, hopping blog.
i see alot of old fren in nbss. i miss those life when im studying there.
i miss all the old times. while i gt alot of attention from alot of frens.
when frens really treat me as frens.
i once rmb a person told me, or i read from some place, forget alr.
'if it ur true fren, u will be suprisie how understanding tat fren is'
ya i find it true. alot of things happen make my mood terrible n ap.
i guess i found some frens tat r good to me yet i din cherish them.
i guess it jus some parts tat we dun agree to each other ba.
if 1 person tink im wrong, mayb tat person's wrong.
but alot of ppl tink im wrong, i guess im really wrong.
all i can say now is takecare bros.

im going to work later on, preparing soon.
im like a no life freak, work work work work work. even left sunday.
also no ppl jio me out. so i jus have to find something to do like taking up courses.
i wanna learn more stuff as the society now is so challenging.
my workmate tina say something abt me which i find it quite true.
im a person tat duno wat's the future, duno wat to do in the future.
duno wat's the thing tat i really wan. i hope i can find it soon.
but i guess i jus need to bulid up interest in my mum's company n take over her.
i dun wanna see her waste her youth fighting n buliding tis company, will fall in my hands. i promise i will work hard n learn all the product in the shortest time. i dun wan her to worry also.

i duno whether should tok back with those fren anot?
i wan too, but something is stopping me diu to some problem in the past.
regretted but life still have to carry on.
i guess i need to be happy everyday cos sad or happy life still goes on. my mum also say fren now nt really impt, money more impt. i find it ok to accept it. i will tink abt it n make a decison to it. duno whether they wan me to be back into their life anot. hais.

i jus wanna add something here,
i guess compare the past i treat ppl without tinking of abt the return.
but now i keep tinking abt the return i should get from them n i actually spoil friendship with them, sorry guys. it took me long to reliease it. i do admit im wrong, but i jus dun say it all the time. well i guess tat's all. bye [edited]

2009-03-13T19:46:00.002+08:00

ya i tink im going to learn how to be alone alr.
mayb cos i gt probation, nv get to hang out wif u guys n chi chat bulid bond den our r/s slowly reduce le ba. i know my fault for the attitude part but i always feel left out when i need to be the first to go home. so all the time i drag my timing till left awhile den take taxi home.
nt waste money but i wan to spend more time with u guys.
im so sick n tired of it le. i keep wondering, will ever a day we back tgt?
seems like without me, u guys r much better.
den so be it ba. i jus work n den go army. dun tink tat much lols.
i guess tis is jus going to be my life.
im tinking of taking up courses like golf, riding horse, pool, bowling.
see how, mayb onli lols.

2009-03-05T02:51:00.003+08:00

well look at the time, 2.51am lols.
mireen at taiwan shopping. enjoy uh :D
buy lots of nice stuff back lols.
kk im now taking my basic driving course. woo !
finally can get to drive, cant wait.
my dream car SLK lols. i dun tink i can able to drive it ba.
ok the test date is 27th march so fast lols.
abit scare cant pass. x.x
support me uh guys :D
ok tml is kolyn bday le. well happy bday in advance lols (:
im going to ur bbq too. i miss mummy,gucci,larry and u lols.
k see u all tml (:
i will update if possible. n my phone keep restart. fk!

2009-03-02T21:17:00.002+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHH i wanna complain !! i wanna kpkb here !!
dun mind ah.

i really duno wat the hell happen to my life.
my onli area also gone alr. now im left with nth.
start a new life where gt so easy.
so many years de broship. so easy let go.
esp when i nv even do anything to u, yet cos me n him argue n quarrel
u dun wanna be bro too.
fkup man !
wat is tis ? im nt so nt impt to other ppl ?
i cant even feel tat im impt in any way.
FKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK !
i really duno hw to make new fren though i know it's still like the past.
i really regret doing alot of thing. dam fk
fortune teller once told me, im born as a horse in winter session.
can u imagine winter den come to tis world?
firstly alr suffer the coldness. so he say im a pityful boy.
but i dun need u all de pity!
ppl often see me as lucky, cos im gt a wonderful family background for now.
no one ever sees my past again when im small.
i nv ever look down on ppl cos of anything.
hais, i guess the problem lies in me.
ur the onli person tat should be able to help me yet u gib up on me.
tis is the ending of my ...
i really duno hw to be happy-go-lucky alr.
alot of time i feel like bursting but i keep controlling it.
i have to see everyone's face.
everytime i tok all heck care me.
den i say something, all say i wrong.
no one wanna tok to me, of cos the mood nt good wat.
[tis refer to something online] FK !

kk complain so much also useless. zz !

2009-02-22T23:24:00.002+08:00

Milo need serious help now !! urgrent.
i duno wat i do or eat wrong. i suddenly become veri serious in anything.
i cant take joke nor i can joke now. mayb partly is cos of my parent but
i need some ways to cure it! i dun wish to be tis me anymore.
anyone gt tips to cure tis pls tell me by any way u can contact me thanks.
helphelphelp!

2009-02-22T14:22:00.003+08:00

My mood tis few day was so-so. Emo, envy, jealous, angry, happy. all kind of feeling.
ya happy's the last. my life now is nt the life i wan. everything's nt in place.
everything is oppsite of wat i wan. Fkit! i did enjoy myself ytd wif aos. belated happy bday gio !:D aos.saddistic. ya have some laughter here n there. i was enjoying myself till i forget the timing i need to reach home by 9pm. when i look at the time, it's alr 8.50pm. woah, i was dam shocked den i rush home by cab. i jus finish taking the ice-cream n drink to the table n have to rush home ): nv enjoy it. ya at night have some dota game wif aos. i see a big diff in my life when i in ... n when im nt... though i regret i join... but my life were much much happy tat time. everyone treat me like their own. unlike now, always i go out wif them. i will have a feeling im nt a part of them. everyone gt topic to tok abt to each other. im always quiet n listen onli. nvm (:

...
i always tot u were the 1 tat understand me well. ya i really thankful tat u always def me when i burst out n ppl complaining abt me. im gladful. but the way u treat me is so diff from last time. last time i ask u go out, at least 1-3 time, 1 time accept. now i ask EVERYTIME reject. wtf is tis, pei me go out also cannot? nvm.
u should know i gt some area factor in my life tat's impt to me. 1 of it is dota.
always i diff team wif u radar n fate or some other pros. it always mega de. yes i did mega n tat's onli once. tat onli once. u all keep mega me 2-3 time or more alr.
u know i always dam depress over dota skill yet u still dun wan end when i ask?
u fk care wat i say? n when u diff team, u ask radar to end onli. den me le? invis ah. we know each other for abt 3-4 years or more alr. u been always so nice n understanding. i know mayb u have reach ur limit n u dun wanna tahan me anymore. if u understand me u should know hw impt is dota bro fren to me. when i need some attention the most, u fk care me. u majiam heck care me. i tok wat u reply -.- , other ppl tok to u. okok de. i been changing yes my attitude is bad. but still anything u need or wat, i sure help de wat. it take 2 hands to clap. if u will jus nt act like u heck care den it will nv happen tis way. i duno wtf u tinking. i feel dam sian alr. if u started to heck me n dislike me. jus tell me straight. n if u still treat me like a blood bro den do something abt it. i keep joke yet no one laugh. nvm , when at fault. u always dun side me. see the diff between a new fren xue n a blood bro. it's nt abt outing tat mean impt. it abt the way u treat things.
nvm i know i type so much, u also may nt be reading it. nvm fk care it ba.

cousin!
meet out soon ba :D i got so much to complain LOL ! jk =p

2009-02-11T23:20:00.000+08:00

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Being Alone While you may act like you don't care on the outside, on the inside your biggest fear is being alone. You can be quite shy and reserved. You feel like a lot of times people don't really see the real you. You're afraid that no one will really truly love you, and that you will be alone for the rest of your life. On the inside you are great person, so just remember that and don't let your shy nature get the best of you! If you don't want to be a lone then you need to make an effort to be with someone. Show the people that you care about that you really love them, and chances are someone will always be there, even if you think they won't.
Disappointment
Where Your life is Going
Commitment
Losing Someone
Looked down on
Death
What is your True Fear? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

2009-02-10T19:41:00.002+08:00

Hi everyone :D
thanks for those tat still can read till tis post cos it been veri long since i post.
so if u still can read tis post tat mean u been coming into my blog n check whether gt new post anot.
ok right now, i been finding alot of job to do. make myself busy dun wanna do nth den tink alot.
i jus finish watching a veri old show 鹿鼎记. veri touching , veri sad, veri happy all kind of emotion also inside. i really envy the main character wei xiao bao. nt cos he gt 7 wife but cos he live his life to the fullest. everyday happy-go-lucky but serious in doing wat he need to do.

ok let me intro everyone alittle of myself.
i may look like a person without emotion, dun show much emotion but actually im veri emotional. once i read someone's blog, tat post say something like tis. 'dun close up urself, or u end up hurting urself ' now i finally know wat does it means. i been closing up myself too much tat i duno hw to express myself anymore. wateva i do, i may make ppl mistaken. my choice of word, my action. i been promise i wil change but it jus seems tat i cant.
i guess as i lose in so many area, it jus hard for 1 area to fix it back. [onli p4l knows]
i crave for alot of attention from diff area, like frens, parent, n alot more but i know wat i wan, don't mean i will get it.

this post is abit of myself. may look naggy but if u dun wanna read it, it's fine (:
thanks all for coming into milo's blog.

2009-01-27T23:47:00.002+08:00

i guess now im a loner alr. gt fren majiam no fren.
dun hang out dun msg dun chi chat. no bonding no anything.
i almost everyday stay at home doing nth. facing the com, tinking wat to do.
tinking whether anyone wan to jio me out lols.
guys out there, anyone tat wanna go out with me can jus msg me de. or tag lols.
im so bored everyday no activite no nth.
i tink of those person to go out with, but it jus seem no one wan.
i really make everyone dislike me alr ? though im always emotion-less but i gt alot of emotion de.
i may look peaceful but in my mind my heart im nt peaceful at all.
i really enjoy the past time in bunk, where i gt fren, everyday go out.
i guess my attitude really sux ba. i been through alot of stages yet tis stage i really
cannot make it alr. i keep having the feeling tat everyone dislike me, but duno isit anot.
wtf im tinking sia, lifeless loveless moodless.
all i do is feel love from cousin ! :D
thanks cousin !

2009-01-26T08:32:00.002+08:00

ok ronald bro.
my words no have any meaning de.
i know my choice of word is always harsh [ sorry ]
i dun wish to carry on tis way.
i jus feel there's no love from anyone alr.
i always tink of u infront of me. even job, b4 i call u.
i alr tell kaixiang i gib u the higher pay job.
u no money, i tink of ways to help u.
i go out, first thing tink of u.
u cant expect me to read ur mind wat.
u dun like to spell out every single word den
hw to understand u better.
i alr told u b4, wat i do wrong den jus tell me lo.
though my attitude still there.
but i been trying to change alr, everytime i change.
i feel there's lesser n lesser love. duno y also.
u ask urself lols. did u do everything, got tink of me first anot.
im nt saying u must but i did truely tink for p4l first b4 me
jus tat sometime my action or words, i myself tink back also feel wrong
but other den tat, i tink im fine wat.
we been brother for 2-4 years alr.
n jus to tell u again.
my word gt no meaning de.
tat kio kill, is actually no meaning de. choice of word gt wrong but there's no other meaning.
nt saying u kio sai or wat. u dun need tink until there.
sometime i jus feel, is i nv do enuff for p4l or wat.
i jus need some attention here n there, need some time to go out with.
mayb when ur bored or wat, u all also can msg me or wat.
nt too much rite? i gt probation, it abt 6pm , i also can cab down to find u all.
den 1-2 hrs cab back home again. tat meeting with p4l alr cost more den 40-50 + alr.
i nt complaining now, but jus giving u exmaple i did do thing for p4l.
for frens too. i jus duno y i keep having feeling some ppl dislike me.
loveless,lifeless,nth-less!

2009-01-25T14:50:00.002+08:00

y i dun feel love at all from anywhere.
i keep having the feeling tat somehow the group i mix with , some of them actually dislike me.
i keep having tis tinking,even p4l make me feel tat way alr. though i know i m tinking too much abt p4l but tat group -.- im like lack of love from fren or anyone lols.
suddenly my world is loveless. i been changing myself alr. yet the more i change, the more i feel tis way. fk-up! if they dislike me can straight at my face, dun need act de. nvm i dun wanna complain alr. dam sick of tis feeling.

2009-01-20T15:26:00.002+08:00

HAR-LOW , SA-LOW , HAMTARO :D

my mind is in a messed. alot of thing happen yet nth can make me post.
now my life is lifeless. staying at home for almost everyday. dam sian.
if gt ppl wan jio me out, do jio me out thanks ! :D
i feel dam sad actually. doing tis with you yet im nt even sure abt ur feeling.
ur heart is like so many ppls in it. im like so out of breath in it.
i dun like the feeling like tis. mayb i shall stop everything.

ohya i cut a new hair style :D though it nt much diff from the past hair. laughs !
but i like tis new hair style :D woo !!!

2009-01-08T00:13:00.003+08:00

ok im here to post again, but i guess i post to nt often so nt much ppl reading alr (:
i duno wat i tinking also. i jus cant feel p4l treating me impt alr.
i know we treat each other diff somehow but den like to me is jus nt enuff.
mayb is jus me ba LOL !
nvm anyways i wonder how 09s going to be.
i going army soon, mayb april or sep.
finding job now lol (: hope to find 1 soon.
p4l jus dun chat on fone nor msn nor msg. veri veri little !!! nt enuff !!!
i tink no matter hw far or hw long nv contact, im learn hw to accept the facts
they r still special in my heart ba. to me, gal can hardly replace p4l alr.
i duno abt de other 2. ass :X
i jus dun feel the same way though. laughs*
alright ash bro, i hope u dun sad alr, cheer up.
actually u din piss me off la, jus tat i dun wan u carry on ur crap wif me LOL
peace k (:
wtf, she gt a new stead n told u wont last long ? n den will patch wif u ? crap sia
y i always nt inform by u de. zz
ronald bro, choose ur path carefully ba, ite or army. for me, i tink u dun really will study much also, i rather u dun waste time go army. u decide ba. dun sad over her also (:
show ur trueselve to p4l. i dun wan u to hide from us. esp from us.

i do everything also will tink of p4l first, but seems like it diff from the 2 p4ls.
nvm i duno wat to do to make p4l closer alr, i lazy to be the onli one tink of idea onli. fk

2008-12-21T02:27:00.002+08:00

Ok guys (:
tis post is abt my bday curse ! nb
it been almost every year tat b4 my bday,
i will be single one. dam fk lol
no swee lover spend my bday wif me.
okok GUYS help me lookout for gals LOL ! [this is for joke but jus play along]
my type is gt standard de
1. Attitude
2.Looks/Figures
3.Must clink wif my fren
4.Sociable

lookout for me ah LOL ! jkjk =p
kk tat's all so boring.
tata`

2008-12-15T01:04:00.002+08:00

hi readers.
i duno if there's any reader though. tis blog's so dead.
i dun feel happy at all. i dun understand why, im always so nt improtant to anyone.
today i woke up at 6pm, i have a long nice sleep for the first time.
after i wake up, straight my dad come in my room n nag me for nt opening the door.
wtf? i sleeping where gt care open door anot.
keep complaining wat i do , blahblahblah!
in msn, i often onli chat with a few ppl. one of it, i dun mention name.
i often feel tat ... gt feeling for me or m i tinking too much cos ... reply me
makes me feel so unwanted. y mus we keep on replying like tis.
i mean u mus really reply like tis den u happy ?
i dun know wat u really tinking abt, any guy can be the one for u.
dun have to me, it jus make me confused.
i been single for so long alr, i dun mind being single. it jus feel sux sometimes
going out with frens, seeing couple together.
nvm mayb im fated to be single for a veri long time since i did something wrong in the past.
i can never attract a gal to be like my type anymore.
hais i wonder when can i find 1.
alright i shall stop here, 10days more to my bday.
i wonder how it will be. nt going to be excited i tink cos tis year im single again.

2008-12-10T02:34:00.002+08:00

Ok Great Day (:
Nth much actually LOL.
Sorry Bro, u always been covering my mistake n dun flare out at me.
i know u know me well n indeed hardly ppl know me like u do.
i always say i will change yet i din. i duno hw to change also -.-
i will learn t-up ba. wat i teach n say, i nv do much also.zz
i always blame u n see ur bad point, im nt a good leader also.
like in dota, i no more old time skill n i really sick of being a cheiftain alr.
everytime draft, i will feed. how to be cheif like tat.zz

G,
if u duno who den nvm. sorry tat i make u moody tat day.
i dun mean it, jus my anger word. hope ur fine.
thanks for pei-ing me tat morning, though ur veri tired.
mayb i flare out tat day cos u went to alot of ppl hse ba, i duno wat got into my mind
but it's like rubbish lol. forget wat i say ba, i dun mean it.
if im the bastard child, ur my bitch child =p
takecare.

2008-11-29T00:04:00.005+08:00

This post will be a naggy post. bare wif it, i jus find it's serious!

This is dam weird. Im feeling so unwanted.
By Frens,Bros,Whoever.
y isit like tis. i hate tis kinda feeling.
nvm dun tok abt it.

Yes bro, i know u wanna take a long break n u dun show ur saddness.
i know my words always stress u or attitude u.
sometimes i can see u realy wanna burst out alr.
everything start with a reason, i tink is cos of me ba.
i change when i started meeting someone.
i really dun wish to be having tis long break anymore.
seem like i gt no fren like tat.
i feel so useless cant even notice when ur sad.
i feel so useless i dun even understand u.
i feel so useless when tis mth nt really doing well.
i feel so useless when i cant even compare to him in ur heart.
i feel so useless in everything.
really mean tat im left with little frens?
p4l is nt the p4l anymore thanks to stress.
thanks to the good n bad changes.
i dun feel tat im a need to anyone anymore.
i will be going back company on sunday. i dun wan to stay on like tis.
i jus hope p4l can be more firm n im sure we dun like to lose.
i wont tee-down u again cos im teaching u hw to tee-up.
dam myself for nt respecting my bro.
sorry, but dun worry i know my attitude alr.
i will change de, as for u. i hope u can stand up again n fight.

still i wanna thanks rachel lol.
keep asking me go escape laughs*
at least i feel abit wanted with tat group of frens.
thanks uh (:

Ok, mayb onli i make new fren den gt tis feeling ba lol.
or isit me tat really change. im in a mist, duno which direction to go.
i really wanna see anyone can bring me out of the mist anot.
i m confuse tired stress up.
nth goes well alr.

There goes a naggy post (:

2008-11-20T01:43:00.002+08:00

This post is jus to write for my bro (:

mr yanlong,
wat is done cant be undone.
jus do wateva u can to make it more smoothly lol.
i nv blame u, i jus hope u really wont do it again.
i wont blog much abt it cos it nt wanted. i know
u cant promise anyone tis cos u been breaking it
but believe u can do it. the decison it all in ur hands.
ok alright i still be fighting in ve, do help me ba (:
though after tis incident i learn alot of thing.
company rules are really there to improve our org.
nt even 1 should be play around. i was wrong in the past to actually
wanted to break 1 of the rules. ohwell, lucky it stop.
thanks for tolerating all my nonesome n nv blame me at all
but jus keep giving me advise. i tink i nv rmb ur bad onli ur good.
every leader gt their own flaws.
jyjy i will change abt my straightforward part, u mus change also.
i believe u can do it.

ronald.
i m sorry tat sometime im really straightforward n i always tok abt t-up yet i t-down u alot of time infront of ur ppl. i promise i will change, do tell me when u feel it wrong. i know i abit hot-temper but i will change ba. as for ur playfullness, i see tat ur changing but we still have lots of thing to learn! jyjy i believe we can do it.

ash.
i know ur busy with ur sch work, cant come to company.
i really hope u can find time come down or even jus bring 2 guy come down.
i duno wat happen to ur life suddenly.
p4l majiam left me n ronald alr.
where r u my dear bro.
i hope u really wont gib up ba, i noe ur family having some problem right now.
if need any help, do ask me. i find ways to help u. sorry tat im straightforward n make u tink tat im jus using u to earn money. dun have tis tinking k bro. i really will do anything for p4l (:

kk i tink tat's all ba (:
tata`

2008-11-18T22:06:00.002+08:00

I been veri stress in company lately. cos mr willies fighting car yet i nv help much till now. plus my side nt moving much. i tink is cos i nv do to my best ba. i wan train 6 ME, but till now, gt 0 lol
alright so i decide to take a break den tat will be today (:

went out wif cindy n dor to east coast.
we went to eat komala at first, it indian food i tink =\
den after tat we ride bicycle.
dor was the fastest in riding bicycle.
i nv really go compete with her but i know i win cindy. wahahah ! :D
we ride to jetty there n dor, cindy went to walk beside the sea. toking also.
den dor have to leave first cos her dad kp liao. so left me n cindy :D
we fetch down to return bike n carry on ride back to somewhere near jetty.
i rmb is no18 rocks. we sit there n listen to the sea. enjoying!
tok alot of thing (: tok until forget tat we overtime the bicycle so rush back to return.
we will late for 30 mins. thanks to the nice uncle tat dun charge us extra =\
after tat, we went to funland to play machine (:
hmm take bus 16 back to bunk again. during the bus trip, i feel so happy la :X
den reach bunk alr, went to buy her bunnie pink handfone strip den went home by mrt.
in mrt, keep play around lol. sorry tat i punch u too hard ah, u say wan try de :X
i sent her to her stops den i take mrt back to amk again
ohya, i rmb cindy say alot of biantai stuff :X keep point middle finger also LOL.
kk i tink tat's all alr (:
tata`

2008-11-04T08:53:00.002+08:00

Hi, readers.
ytd ton at evans hse. ya i din expect to be there till 5.40+ am.
after tat went to eat breakfast with mr yanlong, ronald, ms yanru n meijuan at mac.
reach home abt 6-7am. forget the timing =\
ya wonder y m i nt sleeping rite? lol
cos my mum keep spam me msg. saying wan call police again.
i always believe one day she's going to call police herself to catch me.
i noe she's anxious abt me, scare i do wrong thing again den go into jail.
she duno hw to teach me, so she jus use all the mean word or even always threathen me.
i duno how to explain my feeling right now. it seem like nth is meaningful enough already.
im like quarreling wif both of the parent. my dad ask me to quit tis business cos i cant learn anything.. my mum keep being piss off over small thing n make it dam big. my life jus getting better n better in quarreling.
i wonder who will understand my feeling now, pls share how u face it.
i duno how to face it already, im like going to be crazy.
i see ronald's mum or even my gan mummy kolyn's mum.
so nice to their children de, communicate also nt a problem. y my parent ..
moodless la!

2008-10-27T20:36:00.005+08:00

Hi all readers.
im a person who change it tinking veri quickly.
so this post maybe jus my past few mins tinking.
i dun mean anything (:

recently i duno wtf is happening, seriously onli 1 question in my mind.
is blood bro jus a tittle ?
for me, i dun treat it jus a tittle. im nt going to put anything except family b4 p4l. wat abt de other p4l ? i wont go tink tat my bro is using me or wateva. if anything really happen, i will help or even side p4l first b4 anyone else de. even for company ppl. wat abt u all?

Ash, seriously wat makes u tink tat im nt fighting.
my fighting may nt be in presentation or training cos my learning ability is slower.
i fight in others way. i noe u may tink is over n im being affected by it.
frankly speaking, if i misunderstand u like tis.
how will u feel? i can tel u my feeling, it totally sux like hell man.
i nv ever expect u will tink tis way.
im so disappointed in u yet u wont even say a sorry or wat.
u jus tink it over den it over? u started it but u r nt going to be the one saying when to stop.
im nt trying to say wat. i noe ur good n serious in fighting for ur carrer.
i feel tat's good. u should noe tat i m a person tat feel situation the most.
i always feel tat in personal life, i can help u den u come to me.
now in work, i cant really help u den u dun need come to me or wat le.
wat is tis man ?
wat u share wif desmond abt u defying to ur parent, make me feel tat u also will do anything to defy me. haas im sure u wan to say im tinkin too much again.
mayb everything is my fault ba, i duno wat's tis shyt tat i cause.
sorry for nt showing u tat im fighting or even make u tink tat im jus tapping onto u.
yes im a serious problem wif myself right now.
i feel tat even beata is changing toward me.
i wonder y. i guess the problem jus lies in me n nt others ba.
i dun like to be mistaken, i tink everyone dun like it too.

how i feel, who will really understand.
as for my yanlong bm group itself.
thanks alot for ur helps, without u all i wont be a mm now.
i wil work hard to become a bm by next mth, at the same time gun down the car acheiver tittle, hopfully before my birthday. ur teaching is really good, i m really sorry to cause so much shyt to u. i duno wat im tinking right now, i hope everything will be back to normal.

ronald, dun worry i noe tis months itself.
u still cant show ur true power.
but i believe next mth is going to be a good beginning for u (:
stand strong. i dun wan u to be have tis tinking of me jus wanting to tap on ur commission.
n p4l really mus goes on.
im onli left wif p4l.
i hope to feel p4l is there.
cos i really cant feel it already.
im tired really.

2008-10-25T21:28:00.002+08:00

HELLO EVEVRYONE TAT STEP INTO TIS BLOG.

ATTENTION TO ALL 17 n ABOVE.
if u r finding a job do contact me at 90236151.
if u noe any fren tat need a job also can ask them contact me.
thanks alot ! no pranks.

2008-10-05T08:39:00.002+08:00

Hey (:
today going sentosa, meeting everyone at 10am at harbourfont mrt there.
wat fountain de. haas
my heart is really veri sad or should i say it's turn lazy already.
alot of unspoken words haven say out.
but no matter wat, p4l will stay strong.
jus nt tat strong as last time, frankly speaking, ash n ronald gt other fren.
for me, i dun have much fren left =\
mayb cos of tis, i wan more attention from those close blood bro (:
i noe now it's different cos we r working instead of outside playing.
ya n wat mr yanlong say it's true. like example of cheeyong n mr wenbin.
it's jus different ba. i nv mean any harm yet my word always hurt ppl.
sorry p4l, for my straightforwardness.
i dun ask for more now. i tink it nt easy anymore.
no more little secert, no more stuff to tok abt, no more everything.
for me, i will take a break. i find tat if tis carry on, it will affect me totally.

ash.
i noe we r working n i cant gib good advise in the company
u feel more comfortable toking wif mryanlong n mrwillies
wat abe me? uncomfortable?
i noe u nv get to have enough sleep everyday cos of tis business.
i also feel bad but i always say one ting, u can slp early but u wan to do ur personal stuff
so i also nv go carry on tat topic.
i jus wanna say if u cant control ur temper when u r sleepy cos u nv slp late
den do ur best to slp early.
sorry for everything, im a lazy p4l bro.
all the best in everything(:

ronald.
i noe u always gib me advise on hw to solve my problem, u also wanna solve all the problem p4l have, but it's nt easy n i tink p4l also wanna hear ur problems.
dun tink tat u r adding problem to us, u should trust us n share more to us instead of hearing our problem onli. i wanna noe more abt u also(:
thanks for ur advise. i tink it's good.
all the best n join in the company faster (:

the onli constant is changing.
i do hope p4l change into closer to one another, feel comfortable with one another, play n work together wif one another. dun let tis Dis-ease make us really have tis disease (:
if tis problem is going on for too long, it will become disease.
k i love p4l but i tink all problem come from me ba,
i jus a person who wan to have the old feeling back of p4l.
or mayb last time i nv care tat much of tis feeling, cos p4l is the same like last time =\
no matter wat i m sorry.

tata`

2008-10-03T00:02:00.002+08:00

yoz reader (:
miss my post rite?
ok here's 1 ;D
good new good new !!! weee.
i have promoted to MARKETING MANAGER ! ;DDD
finally , thanks to MR.Willies , last min thanks alot bro !
mr yanlong, i commit myself to train up 3 ME, ronald 1 ME , ash 2 ME
we will help u clear at least 24k PV de. tis is wat i aiming for.
at the same thing , clear 30k LV for my BM ;DD
it 1 step closer to my CAR ;DD
tata` takecare`

2008-09-19T21:38:00.002+08:00

well alot of thing happen den make me really moodless.
i dun feel like mentioning anything in the blog (:
wanna cheer ppl up also hard, feel so noob.
i duno wat i can do to cheer u up. sux man!
i dun tink u need me also, hw can milo do someting to make ppl happy?
ahya nvm.
life's getting harder now.
tata`

2008-09-18T00:21:00.007+08:00

i duno who i can share with my problem, i cant see to have the old p4l back.
working is so stress, without parent support. probation sux, without allowing to stay later to learn. so guys, pls if u staying up late at night, pls learn more.
i tink tis few days i been in bad mood regardless of work,friendship,relationship,parent.
all wrong! it's like getting harder n harder each time. at a point of time, i really feel like quitting.
i dun understand y! but i noe i cant quit.

... i dun wanna mention name (:
i noe it's weird tat suddenly alot of boy go back to u, wanna jio u n stuff.
yes i admit after u break off, indeed i feel like going back to u.
ur a nice gal but jus sometime ur mind goes too weird :X
i noe u treat me like the same as others, no different.
i noe u wanna stable ur heart first.
i noe ur next stead mus be romantic n stuff, if nt u rather die.
for ur group of fren, my reputation is bad.
i duno hw to hell i can change their mind, but i seriously dun care.
i duno wat i tinking right now.
i jus everyday tink of u.

oh well, it nth tat important now.
no one will ever wan me as a failure de.

2008-09-18T00:21:00.002+08:00

actually for all fellow VE's member, today we have a great lesson from Mr.Khai.. top bgm group for a few mths in a row.
dun take thing for granted ba, even like staying out late.
i use out all my ways to learn wat's best for me to learn during nite.
my parent still negative abt wat im doing, let time prove everything ba.
those who can stay late in the company to learn something, pls do so!
it's best to learn from the best.
which i find tat i really miss out alot in the past cos of probation.
i wanna make my parent feel tat i really have change.
i really gt the determination n goals in life to do better.
all the best to everyone in ve , lets fight together.
my yanlong thanks to u, u have done alot of me.
thanks for being there for me, but sorry tat i stil duno hw to express out hw i feel.
i will do my best in everything de.
sure hit car ! ;D

tata`

2008-09-17T01:48:00.002+08:00

hello all (:
i duno wat the hell happen to p4l but i feel there's a gap le.
wish i dunwan tat to happen!
hope im tinking too much (:
mayb the gap is there cos our dear ash p4l dun wanna be straight forward wif me , scare i kena hurt. at least now everything is fine (:
thanks mryanlong !
ya i facing rough path now but after tat will be sunshine, ms yanru say tis right (:
i believe there will be rainbow after raining also. hees

ytd went to do survey at RP lols.
with ms yanru, ms corrine, hobbie, carrot, genesis n me!
their sch fking big n nice la -.-
everything is so nice n big lols.
i onli d abt 30+ survey there, which i dun really like.
i wanted 50 though. nvm do better next time (:
ms corrine keep saying i act cute -.- nb!
i nv act cute lols n i will nv forget wat ms yanru n ms corrine say at passion cafe abt me =\
here its goes ;
ms corrine ; chris look innocent.
ms yanru ; ya look innocent but nt innocent.
ms corrine ; ya lo ya lo
both agree liao -.- Rawr.
i dun act innocent nor cute lol (:
anyway thanks for showin concern to me.
i will break through de.
tink of solution instead of problems (:
wahah ! sound so chim :X

nite nite =\
tata`

2008-09-12T13:53:00.002+08:00

wat happen to me suddenly =\
suddenly all my thoughts gust back wif my past memories.
i feel tat im always making decison later den ppl by 1 step.
i find tat it's getting harder n harder in life.
but still y m i tinking of all these -.-
my mind always ask myself ; can i do it ? can i do it?
i feel so moodless, everytime i tink tat i wont be able to make u happy when u sad.
im nt the 1 u will tink of, when u wan someone to complain.
im jus like normal ppl in ur mind, nt even heart.
hais nvm ): im nt wanted.

i going to be promoted to a Marketing Manager by Sat (: wee~
nt really happy though -.-
i find tat it has alot more to learn.
kk i tink i going company le ba (:

2008-09-09T00:15:00.003+08:00

YES! it's after 12am (:
b4 12am, im on stage taking my ME badge !
weee <3
i m aiming for Marketing Manager by WED !
haas , all the best chris to be mr.chris ! :D
THANKS ALOT TO ALL FELLOW VE PPLS !
specially to Beata[Cousin] tat bring me into the company :D i believe u can solve ur problem asap de (:
to Mr Yanlong[BM] for guiding me all along when im a SA , ur advise really help me alot. thanks ! SURE HIT CAR MAN ! :D
to Ash[p4l BRO !] thanks for becoming a ME in 2 days , im really proud of u. i believe we all will hit our BM together next 2 mths :D
to Ms Yanru,Mr Willie,Mei Juan,Genesis n alot more ppl in VE who guide me till now (:
<33 u all alot ! :D

CINDEH BAOBAO :D,
sorry i cant really be there for u when u need someone, but i tink if u wanna share anything wif me like complaining or wat, can always msg me. i believe no matter how busy im.
i will reply ur msg asap de (: i jus wanna do something for the sad baobao. im jus a fone away (:
if u really need someone to be there wif u, jus msg me. if it within the time restrict, i will do my best to go down n find u de (:
though i m tinking alot tis few days but ohwell life have to goes on. i believe now is nt the time for a relationship. mayb next year or so, when my probation,army all ended. i will seriously use all ways to get approval of the gal i wan (: i love baobao , thanks for brighten up my day.
ur the first gal tat walk wif me the whole bugis area in 1 day LOL ! :D

Dor Weirdface (:
i noe hw u all find me in the past.
i noe n i admit i m tat kind of person but 1 thing is for sure, i nv tink of anything b4 or wat i going to do wif her. it from the bottom of my heart. lets time prove everything ba (:
but seriously , thanks for u n we have celebrate 1 year anni already (:
im sure it going to be 2 year , 3 year , 4 years .. (:
WEIRDFACE love you (:
all the way !

ASH p4l BRO !
im so so proud of u becoming a 2day ME !
though alot of thing happen but pls if u understand me from the past im a veri straightforward person n u r always been there for me. So i believe tis straightforward problem, u will help me cure it right bro? i really wanna help u in any way man. i really dun wan anything to happen to u n me, i really dun wan! i cant lose any of the p4l. all i need is some form of needed n respect from u. all the best ! :D i love u bro !

RONALD p4l BRO !
though u r nt wif us nowadays (:
me n ash has hit our ME !
but i believe once u come back after ur N level.
u sure going to be better den anyone of us.
i have faith in u bro ! thanks for being there for me all the time too :D
i love u bro !

p4l bro !
i really really happy to have u guys by my side (:
i tink we r still growing up stage !
i believe tat we all will sucess in VE !
nt onli jus some ranking , but skilled in anything tat we r.
tat should be the way of p4l ! :D
lets really help each other bad point become good point.
i really dun wanna anything to happen to p4l
i may nt have the mood for duno hw long if tis happen.
i love p4l !

2008-09-06T23:49:00.003+08:00

hmm after so long i guess those reader in my blog , wan some new post ba (:
im currently left about 1.8k LV to promote to Marketing Manager. YAYAY !
hmm end of job stuff (:

thanks to baobao, she's so sweet to change blogsong for me cos she listen mine until ear melt lol!
so cute la =\ but anyways thanks alot (:
though we miss the movie but i guess we have some fun on friday ba. haas.

my mind is in the mess -.-
duno wtf im tinking, y i keep tinking of u appearing in my mind =\
so weird la! it's been so long since tis happen.
i believe it will goes off after a few days ba. i hope =\
i noe it's impossible cos u will nt so easily forget...
so i wont tink so far ba, i guess im a nobody.
ohwell, i also dun tink i can be someone there for u ba.
u will nv tink of me or msg me first though =\
hmms, nvm im contended tis way (:
slaps meelo* wake up man !

end blog le tata`

2008-09-01T23:36:00.010+08:00

went out with cousins today. Adora, Anthea Beata. we went to Kbox at JE (: dun need to talk much. pictures say it all. plus a vid. i think that's why i never really thought that i would be a singer. hmmm. had fun. LOADS AND LOADS AND LOADS OF FUN. been so long since i saw them.. ADORA GREW PRETTIER. :D (we can try competing for bhbness.)

i love my cousins. XD

here i am. acting cute/innocent. :Pwhy Anthea's hand so zun one? must just nice show off my handsome face (:
i'm a rocker. and. why you so extra? :D
Anthea's going "eewwwww. what smell is that? omg. smelly feet!!"
we are a happy cousin family. envious?
i know. i know i look DAMN good. thanks, thanks. Don't clap so loud leh, i'll paiseh! :D
show me da cousin love! (:
i think i almost suffocated stuck between smelly feets. D:that's why. buay tahan smell all start to fight alr. hai~~

and it all gets resolved when me and Adora kee siao...and starts singing My Anata. omggggg. I'm UTTERLY embarrassed. really. OMGGGGGGGG.

2008-08-30T02:10:00.003+08:00

alright i shall post some nice stuff today (:
i been promoted to ME, woo !
n with ash n ronald help, im sure to be MM by 1day (:
thanks alot p4l, u mean alot to me.

i duno if i should post tis.
i duno if u r still reading my blog like last time cos i nv post for so long =\
i jus wanna tel u, dun be stress already.
dun tink of the problem[science] , tink of the solution like hiring a tutor?
or mayb some other ways u can tink of to help u in science.
is possible i can find tutor for u, u can pay me back slowly if u wan.
tink of the good side, u put in so much effort, in return there's result
u r getting all passed except for science.
tat's a big difference compare to term 1 n 2.
though u may deprove some other subject, i believe ur determination will do well in ur term 4.
if u need any help, jus tag or msg me.
i will see wat i can help though (:
takecare. dun stress urself too much. u did well, i really sense ur determination tis time.
i respect u.

tata`

2008-08-19T20:50:00.010+08:00

Chris uses judgment to make decisions. He is ruled by his head, not his heart. He is a cool, collected person who is usually unexpressive emotionally. Some may see him as unemotional. He does have emotions but has no need to express them. He is withdrawn into himself and enjoys being alone.

The circumstances when Chris does express emotions include: extreme anger, extreme passion, and tremendous stress. If someone gets him mad enough to tell him off, he will not be sorry about it later. He puts a mark in his mind when someone angers him. He keeps track of these marks and when he hits that last mark he will let them know they have gone too far. He is ruled somewhat by self-interest. All his conclusions are made without outside emotional influence. He is very level-headed and will remain calm in an emergency situation. In a situation where other people might get hysterical, he has poise.

Chris will work more efficiently if given space and time to be alone. He would rather not be surrounded by people constantly. In a relationship, he will show his love by the things he does rather than by the things he says. Saying "I love you" is not a needed routine because he feels his mate should already know. The only exception to this is if he has logically concluded that it is best for his mate to hear him express his love verbally.

Chris is not subject to emotional appeals. If someone is selling a product to him, they will need to present only the facts. They should present them from a standpoint of his sound judgment. He will not be taken in by an emotional story about someone else. He will meet emergencies without getting hysterical and he will always ask "Is this best for me?"

People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Chris doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

Chris will be candid and direct when expressing his opinion. He will tell them what he thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want his opinion, don't ask for it!

In reference to Chris's mental abilities, he has a very investigating and creating mind. He investigates projects rapidly because he is curious about many things. He gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but he soon must slow down and look at all the angles. He probably gets too many things going at once. When Chris slows down, then he becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, he must slow down to do it. He then decides what projects he has time to finish. Thus he finishes at a slower pace than when he started the project.

He has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. His mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. He can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Chris can then switch into his low gear. When he is in the slower mode, he can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. He is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.

Chris's true self-image is unreasonably low. Someone once told Chris that he wasn't a great and beautiful person, and he believed them. Chris also has a fear that he might fail if he takes large risks. Therefore he resists setting his goals too high, risking failure. He doesn't have the internal confidence that frees him to take risks and chance failure. Chris is capable of accomplishing much more than he is presently achieving. All this relates to his self-esteem. Chris's self-concept is artificially low. Chris will stay in a bad situation much too long... why? Because he is afraid that if he makes a change, it might get worse. It is hard for Chris to plan too far into the future. He kind of takes things on a day to day basis. He may tell you his dreams but he is living in today, with a fear of making a change. No matter how loud he speaks, look at his actions. This is perhaps the biggest single barrier to happiness people not believing in and loving themselves. Chris is an example of someone living with a low self-image, because their innate self-confidence was broken.

Chris is having a lack of physical energy at the time this handwriting was written. If someone has very short and straight down lower loops (like in the y or g), this indicates this person's physical drive (activity or sex) is compromised. Usually, this indicates the person simply isn't interested in getting too physical right now. This could be a temporary mood which often happens when the body is sick and is healing. Or, this could be a result of an emotional or physical issue that is effecting Chris 's energy level and interest in sex. Sex doesn't seem to be a priority at the moment.

Chris has a very unusual lower zone y loop. If the data input is correct, Chris's y or g is large and opens up to the left side of the page. This is not a common trait, but the implications are very interesting. As you begin to study handwriting analysis, you will learn any loop indicates imagination. This lower loop indicates the amount of imagination Chris has regarding sex and physical things. So, his lower zone stroke is large, so his sexual imagination is large and open. Furthermore, because the loop is incomplete and extends to the left, this indicates a particular fascination with certain aspects of sexuality that have not been fulfilled, yet. In a nutshell, Chris is open to some very new ideas sexually and is willing to try anything once.

For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Chris has left lots of white space on the right side of the paper. Chris fills up the rest of the page in a normal fashion. If this is true, then Chris has an unhealthy relationship to the past and has a fear of moving forward. The right side of the page represents the future and Chris seems unwilling to face the fear of getting started living now and planning for the future. Chris seems to be clinging to past events and spending lots of time thinking about what happened. It would be best to leave the past behind and move on. Stop crowding that left margin.

let u all be the judge (:

if u all find it true , tel me ba.

i myself duno isit true anot =\

thanks ! tag me wat u tink .

2008-08-13T01:32:00.003+08:00

wow.. i wonder y ppl so kpo.

curse those bitches or whoever tat is. zz __

alright i lazy type so much abt it.

ugly bitches.

nt bad nt bad =\

i fixing quite a few appt, aiming MM by end of tis mths.

wish me luk (:

im sure i can do it one.

hmm ytd have a coffee session wif MS Jessice.

solid! learn alot of her.

dun worry Mr Yanlong, i already gt the mindset of nt giving up easily le

im the 42 times champions lols.

where gt so easy giv up de LOL.

jkjk! anyway..

i will be working everyday to make some record b4 i go army ba =\

kk shall end here

tata`

2008-08-10T03:08:00.004+08:00

ALRIGHT GREAT DAY LA!!

finally after around 1 years plus. i can stay out late till 1 plus den reach home!! weeee ;D
i miss those night life la, so refresh after watching a near midnight movie wif my company's fren.
unexpected saw my ex gang fren though -.- kk stop abt tis topic blah ~
hmm , i watched a movie call LOVE GURU. it's dam dam dam funny la!
i recommend u guys who's reading my blog to watch it. it really will teach us important stuff
in a laughing way. i can swear it's damm funny!
duno y today i feel so refresh even though is 3am + now. mayb diu to my excitment after a near midnight movie n staying out late lo. ok after i post, i go slp le.
going company tml for MR KIT TAN grouping (:
at 11am. gosh, i scare i cant wake up =\
blah. should be ok wif morning call from fren n my lovely maid (:
after tat, should be meeting silent's aunt at around 5 plus.
i really hope it will be a good start for ronald bro! jiayous for tml.
i need ur support closing le, ronald (:

hmm seem like someting is still nt really right in my life, tis movie LOVE GURU has some important detail like, { if i rmb :X }
You
is
You.

The only way out is in.

dun fantasy on ppl loving u but loving urself is the most important.

i forget alot more damm funny de.
hmm if u guys watched the show LOVE GURU, pls tell me those i left out =\
u noe la, chris aka meelo abit stm de =\

kk tata`
slppy yawn!

2008-08-03T23:21:00.005+08:00

WEEEEEEE !
i came back posting cos i waiting for the ppflim to load until sian -.-
so fking slow la the ppflim .zz
today went back to company after so many days missing in action.
learn alot alot of thing today.
i heard 2 story today. see if i can recall, i try writing it down. dam meaningful de.

1st story. (duno spell correctly anot =\)
there's a jouralist. he's having some task on. every other of his classmates went to find celebraity,model,popular ppl to write a story out of them but tis jouralist went to the prison to find someone who is going to be death sentence in 4days time. the path in prison was dark, as he walk along the path toward the cell of the prisoner, he felt kinda scary. wondering wat kind of person he is, y he did so much n become death sentence. jouralist ask the prisoner , do u feel regret after doing all these? the prisoner ans, no! i live my life to the fullest by being like tis.
the jouralist heard tat n was kinda furious but he ask the prisoner again, why? the prisoner ans, cos my mum is a prosuitute n my dad is a rapist. at tat moment the jouralist from furious to pity mood. he went out of the prison n ask the officer for more information of tis prisoner. he gt the information of the prisoner tat he gt a smaller brother. he went to call the smaller brother n ask for a meet out. the smaller brother agree n the jouralist went to new york to find the smaller brother. he was standing outside the bank n wondering, at least tis smaller brother is having a job, mayb as a guard or a cleaner in the bank. he went into the bank n ask the guard, i have a appointment with tis guy, the guard saw n called the smaller brother, the jouralist saw tat the guard was toking veri polietly on fone. the guard den sent the jouralist to the lift n straight away press the highest floor, 71 floor. the jouralist was shocked. he was wondering wat the smaller brother is doing in the highest floor. logicaly highest floor is for boss or ceo. the lift open n he saw the same exact face of the prisoner. the smaller brother is his twin brother n he's the PRESIDENT of the biggest bank in new york. the jouralist was suprise n ask the smaller brother, u noe u gt a elder brother right? the smaller brother replied, ya. the jouralist ask the same question for the elder brother to the smaller brother, the smaller brother replied, i live my life to the fullest! the jouralist was shocked. 2 different position yet the ans is still same.
tis story tell u tat, who you are? wat will u be? fate is control in ur own hands.
mindset n believe is veri important.

there is another thing i find it quite meaningful n it true.
everyone sure experience veri tired already after everything tat we've done for the day, we will all in the bus n wanted the sit but no sit. u imagine 20 years later, u still suffering n need to stick wif everyone in the bus?
for me, i wil die. tat's y i need to do something abt it.i need to make sure 20 years later, i will nt need to take public transport like bus, mrt. at least i gt my own car, or even take mrt.

TO BE SUCESSFUL.
u mus do the right thing n the right time.

tat's all (:
tata`

2008-07-28T10:49:00.002+08:00

later going to eunos working again, tis time ms jasmine wanna tok to me abt my planning lo.
hees, so funny la! i made my first deal (:
though i nv earn much but im fine wif it cos i benefit my granny.
thanks granny for buying from me x33s
hmm nth much in my life.
p4l also rarely meet out le, cos i keep working lo -.-
sorry p4l bros x33s
i will meet u all more n more de (:
dun worry, p4l wont be forgotten.
k i go prepare le ba (:
tata`

2008-07-27T00:30:00.003+08:00

i guess my reader miss my post ba :X
so long nv post le cos nth nice to post lols.
i guess i write a post ba, since quite a few ppls been complaining to me they nv see my blog update.
hmm today celebrate silent's bday again.
alot of ppl came, lazy say who lols.
today my pool form nt bad le, win 4 games in a row.
after tat duno wat happen, keep losing onli.
stil gt win back a few ba i guess :X
today keep smiling no matter happy anot, nt bad nt bad (:
hmm nth much le ba.
TML i going to meet some more appt, hope can do it!
im going wif ms yanru for the first time lols.
i wonder if close deal, den mr yenlong no face le :X
wahahah! jkjk, thanks for VE's ppl de patient n concern.
i really love VE ppl (:
though my parent gt network for me for other job tat earn better but i tink im going to stick wif VE ba, i dun wan to waste all of those senior de effort n time (:
n thanks beata cousin rocks !
tat intro me into VE's family.
i really learn alot n i noe im going to learn more.
wish me luk for tml appt ba.
tata`

2008-07-23T10:56:00.002+08:00

going to work at eunos for some more training again.
i feel utterly disappointed by my dad but ohwell, he tink different for network marketing.
im going to work hard n get the 1st deal ! at least tis week.
i wonder who is my 1st customber? (:

ohwell, duno y i nt really adapt to the life where there's no love.
but nvm, things cant be say in blog de.
i believe 1 day miracle wil happen. like my job!
im like contradicting myself, half of my mind dun wan the miracle to happen cos it will be damm damm hurt or sad. another mind of mine, is saying nt bad wat.
my life's kinda stable down with work.
i really wanna be a somebody where ppl call me Mr.Chris. lols.
kk la going to eat my breakfast den go company training le.
tata`

2008-07-21T20:51:00.003+08:00

blahhh reach home le . so tiring
after so much training n learning of product n go to my dad for my first deal .
he din support me or gib me chance to say abt my product but i noe he wanna see wat changes i have in tis job. i will prove to him n everyone tat i really can change de.
life is nt so sucessful so i will learn to accept rejection.
i will go on ! jyjy meelo ! wee`
kk later dota wif alot of ppl i tink (:
own own own !
tata`

2008-07-20T23:07:00.003+08:00

today went to work the whole day at eunos , learn alot of thing (:
thanks mr yen long n ms yan ru n other nice nice ppl to teach me so many stuff ! (:
u guys r really nice n patient.
tml i will be working for my 1st deal n tml will be the day i start to work.
saddly, today is pay day ):
mean i next mth den can get payed lols.
i will work hard n get at least 3k for tis mth de!
kk wish my luk ba (:
i need to do alot of reflection already though my company's ppl all tink tat im nt a 17 cos im mature enuff for my tinking but still i tink im childish ba.
i need to work hard tml!
i wanna be a 1day ME . {closed 4 deal}
weee` im sure to do it.
kk tat's all i guess.
tata`

2008-07-19T21:05:00.002+08:00

2nd post of the day .
wanted to work today , tat's y wear so formal , in de end for some reason nv go work =\
nvm tml going work for my last 2 hrs of training n start working lols !
i mus work n earn money le .
i been spending alot tis few days -.- is like wtf !
kk went to lan find mummy (:
she is still the same n she intro me a show regarding the china earthquake de .
wat she say abt the show , like so touching lo but i not into the show =\
saw larry, daniel, silent n den after some times , saw kolyn n mattew too (:
see see for less den 5 mins , bye bye le lols .
silent n me will playing soccer wif those small kids , rofls .
after tat , went to katong mall to play pool wif ash , tinghui n silent .
play pool , keep losing as usual .
duno y my pool skil jus become crap -.-
i keep being a idiot wif silent today , but at least make tinghui n ash laughs (:
they sent me to take cab home n im home posting le .
kk going to bath , smell good LOL =\
tata`

2008-07-19T10:42:00.004+08:00

there's alot of thing i actually wanted to write out in tis post.
but i dunno hw . hais , wat can i do now ! zzz
life is jus meaningless and aimless .
i do hope im really fine .
p4l bro till de end .
i stil find tat in my life something is still amiss .
ahya meelo , fk tis amiss thing pls !
i shouldn be posting anything like tis but i dun wan my blog to rot .
i onli noe no matter happy or sad or wateva feeling i have , i onli smile to others .
i guess a smile can resolve alot of thing ba .
though my aim is being a somebody in tat company im working right now but even im starting to earn 29k per mths after working like our company topman for 7 years . still there is something missing . i maybe a somebody in the company , when im out of the company , im a nobody.
even if im a somebody to everyone , im a nobody without your care n concern !

ytd , my stomach still veri pain , gt fever again 38.1.
duno wat the fk happen to my body , it so weak nowadays.
i cant let ppl worry or get trouble for me, so i did take my medi but till now my stomach still kinda pain. fever's gone.
k i going to have my last 2 hrs of training den can start working n earning money le.
i will work hard n save alot alot of money to do wat i wan.
kk tat's all.

tata`

2008-07-17T21:04:00.004+08:00

ok i went to sch today as per normal.
after sch, i went to eunos wif jason n jeremy.
such a small world, tat we r working in the same company lols .
i tink we gt more chance to meet after sch le .
i guess im putting 100% into work now .
i wanna earn alot alot of money n carry out wat i wan to do .
though my parent dun support me n keep on discouraging me but i will prove them wrong but showing them my pay cheque once i get it.
i wanna let my parent noe tat i can do something without their help.
i tml going to eunos to start my basic learning experience hope i close a deal ;D
ya i tink i going wif jason n jeremy too (:
kk jiayou meelo ! i can do it ;D
tat's all i guess
tata`

2008-07-16T14:50:00.003+08:00

Ok im going eunos to meet my cousin for some working stuff.
later i will update my reader wat ahgong{gan mummy's dad} told me in fortune telling. so stay tune reader ;X

ok back from eunos, kinda tired =\ but i enjoy listening to them lo.
those ppl there is really friendly, though they gt problem themselve but they treat ppl wif respect n i going back there tml after sch.i gt a stupid tinking though but i will keep it to myself. i will be a somebody de !

ok ahgong fortune telling for me .hmms, i no worries for money or even no money. no worries no gal out there for me but i dun care abt gal first. i will marriage at de age of 26. i duno hw to save money. once i touch gal, my fortune will drop. i will earn quite alot after age of 3o. oni noe hw to save money after 4o. i may die early at de age of 60+ so i mus becareful of car at tat age. im nt veri smart, so cant expect me to get good result. ok tat's all i guess. if anything i rmb tat i edit the post (:

tata`

2008-07-13T19:21:00.003+08:00

i nt so bo liaos to jus to make u anxious n worry . nt cos of ash , i den dun care le .
sorry if i spoil ur mood , ur jus trying to say it's jus a gan blahblah .
nvm la is a gan nia . u started tis gan , ended wif tis gan . all u decide , i cant say anything ba .
i did try to be ur fren , nt i nv . i will do my best to be a fren again ba . hope tis time it really work.

yihui , tis is singapore le , from the start i noe u , u heard from xiaoai n some other ppl tat im bad den u keep say wan tio me jus to make me stay away from her. i really duno wat i've done wrong. i wont tio a gal. u wan beat me wif all ur backup all wat, den pls beat me till i die, if i still left my last breath den i make sure u regret it. i veri tired over those problem so dun add in problems for me.

end
tata`

2008-07-13T11:42:00.002+08:00

seriously i gt nth to worry le . mattew will treat her 1oo times better den me .
i been tinking wat is fairytale ? after wat someone told me , i finally noe le .
being a close fren , celebrate tis saddistic 6 mth wif tis loser , mattew gonna mistreat her . it's all jus my fantansy i guess .
i wont noe hw u tink abt me . a suxer i tink ?
u chat wif yihui abt me , u become another person . mayb tat's the real u ba .
at least i noe wat u 2 chatting abt already . i can swear to everyone even if i die in my room .
no one will notice , onli till the next morning mayb . tis is hw patheic it will be .
ya im tat useless , onli gt my brothers to support me . at least b4 i make any harsh decison , i going to settle all those thing tat i haven do . if u wan try wif meelo , i nt going to gib face le .
i been trying to relax yet u keep coming over to provoke . wat u trying to prove sia ?
i gonna fk care u at tis moment but dun be over limit .
i duno wtf i tinking last night , ash thanks ba , i will do a swee swee step tat end everything de .
promise is jus a word , dun worth a thousand gold in my heart already .
i may promise u but i may nt be doing it .
jus see hw it goes as i say ba . i duno le .
i guess she left wif no choice but to hurt me alot more .
tis is my life ba , for holding on to something which is nt mine already .
ya i dun have anyone to support me except my bros .
at least i gt my bros , is enuff . i dun need many ppl to support me .
i noe everyone support mattew . im a nice guy , he's a great guy .
say nan ting is use money to pamper gal . ya i duno hw to pamper gal .
he can be super romantic , ya i duno hw to be romantic .
ahya nvm la no point typing so much .
later ppl come kp me again .
tata`

2008-07-12T23:09:00.002+08:00

k i guess today silent's fren de taiji should be alright le ba (:
today went to katong mall wif silent , larry n ash .
nth much , as usual play pool , drink bubble tea , spend alot of $$ lols .
i tot i nv go out till sat but once go out spend until like flowing water .
i guess today silent ton-ing cos erika ton-ing . i gonna dota alone wif don,des,lab n don's fren .
nt really owning but in de end they leave , pub0r game -.-
went to bunk after deciding awhile cos ash miss those ppl in bunk LOLS .
cab down to bunk den slack slack , tok tok .
i went home at 8 , ash n larry too .
left silent there .
k tat's all i guess .

i really really thanks those ppl who gib me advise , stood up for me , accompany me when i needed it . these ppl will be loved n concern by meelo although i nt really good in tat =X
anyways , without u guys meelo wont stand up to face reailty ba . i guess i really miss my old self ba , i dun wan ppl to be worrying for me already , i shall stop here n really try becoming back the old meelo . hmm another thing , i need to quit tis bad habit of tinking too much but nt many ppl make me tink too much ba . guys , if gt ways to cure it , tag me uh ;D

end blog
tata`

2008-07-12T10:24:00.003+08:00

ytd went out wif silent , jason , dor , soda . waited for soda for more den 3 hrs +
she onli noe hw to laughs n after tat she came le . we need to wait for her again .
when we will abit tulan-ed n went down bunk to find dor n soda .
when i step into bunk , i heard dor say they came le , can go liao .
i was like wtf-ing lols .power la , make us wait although we r boy la .
kk la den exchange present wif dor ^^
she bought me a nice key chain wif my name n a heart on it .
thanks^^ i have put on my fone le .
den reach parklane finally !
went to play pool n abt 7.30+ .
i walked dor to mrt from parklane n i go take bus .
tat's all for ytd i guess .

silent say i slowly becoming back the old meelo i once be . tat cos i dun wan anyone to be worry abt me . everyone gt problem , i dun wanna add into their problem , i dun care im sad or wat .
i will smile as much as i can if possible . i hope i can be back the old meelo i used to be . i will learn to change myself . anger wont solve any problem . indeed cant blame anyone or fate to be like tis , but i can swear god is giving me stages to clear b4i can reach out to my belove one . i swear i will do anything for u de .

tata`

2008-07-10T00:40:00.005+08:00

tis is a long naggy post , if dun wan read is fine wif me .
y meelo is a fickle minded person ! grrs . everytime angry already , tink back y m i so angry ?
i already say i accept n dun mind . okok slaps meelo* cant be angry de .
it's normal for teenager in r/s to be like tis . come to tink back , i really dun mind wat she's doing in the past , now or even the future . i jus feel uneasy bah . i maybe over protective but it all jus concern n dun mean harm . y mus my attitude always be so bad -.- y cant i be romantic ? y mus these bad point be those point tat u hated most . no matter wat , i say i will change myself again n again yet i nv . i really look down on meelo . useless sia , y so easy hot-tempered . y always gib attitude when she treat u good or concern for u . grrs , i dislike myself like tis . guys , is there any way to change attitude or become more romantic , pls tel me if u all noe hw cos meelo seriously wanna change . i dun wan jus say say . all along in my heart , i stil feel veri happy cos of ur little words of concern . even if jus 1-2 short msgs , it really brighten up my day . i may nt be the swee talker but wat i type here is wat i wan to say . nobody noes , wat wil happen tml . so cherish wat u have now b4 u all regret . u r my greatest regret , i dun care if u read tis post already , u going to start topic n quarrel or avoid me . i jus wanna type all out already . i really really hope i can be something in ur life , i wan to be somebody in ur life . dun care is fren , gans , ~~stead~~ or wateva .
i wan help u when u gt trouble , i wan lent u my shoulder if u sad , i wan lent u my ear when u need to complain , i wan to do anything jus to be around u . i mayb like xiao xin so attitude n not romantic but at least u r urself when u r around me last time . now i tink u cant even treat me as a normal fren cos u scare u tok more will hurt me more or jus gib me false hope . seriously if u say u dun mind being a fren wif me y still cant look at me sunday ? we onli tok 2 lines till larry came den we chat more . tis is call a fren ? i noe it hard to be normal fren also , i do hope we can keep trying . i dun care wat my outcome will be , at least i wanna feel tat we really did try . u r like pei pei in the show , so pretty n cute like an angel in my heart . i tink if i nv even change myself , i will nv dare to hope for anything . 161 days n still counting . tis is the first time i still waiting when the gal is in a r/s n do so much thing already . thanks for getting in my heart when there is so many out there , i gonna keep u in my heart . now u may feel everyone is envy of u , u feel everyone is jealous of u . i guess kinda true bah , no one jealous or envy u in the past . im facing the reailty n i noe it gonna be a hardcore thing but i wont gib up . i wanna noe u better b4 i can make any decison . i really wan see wat kind of gal r u . i hope u wont disappoint me n become someone like wat ur ahma say u in the past . sorry if i mention ur ahma cos i suddenly recall of her . dun care la , i noe ur ahma view of u is a comfirm wrong cos she duno u well enuff . it take a lifetime to noe a person well enuff , i guess i will use my lifetime to noe u well . i wanna do alot of thing but i scare u may tink im irrtating again . everytime i msg u , i see ur reply like dun feel like msg-ing me like tat . i guess ur life now left a few ppl tat u can concern too bah . mummy , mattew , yihui , larry . i dun count myself in cos im nt those impt person in ur life . i wonder sometimes when u do something , will u suddenly tot of me anot ? i wonder sometimes wat others say to u , will u tink of me anot ? if gt , im really happy lo . now everything ur fone rings , ur first tot is mattew . 3-4 mths ago , when ur fone first ring should be me bah {bhb}.
if u need any help , pls tel me really . i will do my best to help u as much as i can . im always a call away n my fone is 24/7 for u n onli u . i will takecare of myself de , i duno y i jus feel weaker n weaker each day . even i eat medi already also i feel tat way . hope nth happen ba cos there is still alot of thing i wanna do wif u . when i grow up , i do hope i can earn money n den buy 2 ticket n bring u to japan to have fun . although tis year my bday wish is nt gonna happen n i guess tis year de bday wont be tat fun ba . ok let me use my first bday wish today ba.
1. meelo wish tat kolyn lim can be wif mattew lee foreva
i left 2 more wishes . next time gt chance den i tink abt wat i wan ba (:
i dun care i need to do hw much thing , ur smile can change my world . i do hope u will always smile .
end blog
tata`

2008-07-09T21:23:00.002+08:00

I ANNOUNCED XMEELO IS DEAD LIKE TIS BLOG !

9.23PM .

I WONT BE POSTING TILL THERE IS SOMETHING SPECIAL OR HAPPY FOR ME TOO .

2008-07-08T12:34:00.005+08:00

LET ME WRITE SOMETING TO ALL MY BELOVED ONES.
see carefully !

Kolyn .
thanks for ur concern n ur push for me to eat medi , i promise u from now onward . i will take care of myself de . im nt going to let anyone around me to worry . i really enjoyed wat i have in the past . all along u r a great gal yet i mistreat u in the past . wat i have done is really too much bah . the main thing is i wan u to be happy to be xin fu . i guess now u r veri happy n xinfu le bah .even cant be lover but can be fren foreva . i dun mind nt being prince or princess to u cos im always the toad by ur side . all the best !

Silent .
all along u advise me when im confuse n accompany me no matter wat . i really really thanks you . dun worry , the meelo u once noe will be back de . mayb nt so soon ba but gib me some time i will change back de . p4l gt u as the brain really do help alot n u brighten my day quite alot ba . i do hope 1 day she will understand hw u feel n accept u . all the best !

Ash .
thanks for being there for me n u did try to spend more time wif p4l already .
im really gladful . i hope she 1 day will understand ba , i noe u also wan her to be happy n feel fortunate . dun gib up if u wan carry on . cos once gib up , u may nv find the same gal in ur life again . lets learn dance together someday . i wanna learn ! all the best !

Larry .
g4y parther ! thanks for helping me to say nice words when i jus noe u awhile onli .
i nv even treat u tat good but yet u shown me the care n loves LOLS . lets learn jumpstyle or c walk together bah , so cool . no matter wat , i will support u de . im glad to noe u as a fren n may u find ur loves one soon . all the best !

Dor .
we r weirdface gans for 1 year n 1 days le . so fast yet i duno we r gans for so long lols .
dun sad over ur r/s problem . if u need my advise i will try to help u although i may nt be helpful but im nt useless . all the best !

Yihui .
thanks for ur advise n when u noe the problem , u call me jus to gib me some useful advise . last long wif ur boy ba ! all the best !

To the Rest where i nv write down ur names , dun mean i forget u all already .
jus tat meelo is abit lazy to write down everyone >< ! u all gt my support , anything can tel me or i can try to gib some advise de . all the best !

2008-07-07T23:57:00.002+08:00

OMG I NEARLY FORGET ;DDD
HAPPY 1 YEAR GANs WEIRDFACE !!
thanks for being there for me when i need although u r nt much help but thanks
i din noe so long le , laughs* times fly bah .
thanks for choosing tat song in ur blog for me but i stil dun really noe the meaning
lols ;X happy always , dun sad of ur old r/s ba . all the best !!
tata`

2008-07-07T03:05:00.004+08:00

ok im going to slp soon , later mayb going to pei larry wif silent to wawa's lan .
my chest is pain duno y . i hope my lung wont have a hole again . hais zz
now no matter wat i do , u wont notice me bah , like today i buy apple tea for u .
i guess u already forgotten lols . i really hope 1 day u will notice wat i have done for u is onli concern abt u n mean no harm . i will support u wateva decison u made de .
i dun allow anyone to bully u , no one can ! even it cost my life i also will protect u de as a fren .
i guess quite alot of ppl look down on me already ba. cos of a gal become another person ?
it like i hate tat kind of person last time yet now im becoming like 1 . laughs*
i guess i understand hw they feel now . hope ur bf dun fine in court too much .
kk hope today will be a happy day .
tata`

2008-07-06T11:33:00.006+08:00

I find tis quite meaningful inside the show 18禁不禁 , recommended by kolyn de (:
the peom is ,
something u do , den u wil understand
something wrong already , den u wil understand
something when u grow up , den u wil understand
gal things , now i understand .
lols . i duno from chinese to english correct anot ><
abit lousy ;X
later anything i update more ,
tata` x33s

back from kolyn's lan .
meet her around 3.4o pm + den larry came at 7pm +
we nv really tok much b4 larry came but i guess i feel tat's enuff to see u smile , laugh .
i dun mean anything , i guess i can try changing my point of view n consider a fren .
all along , i dun dare to have high hopes cos high hopes onli make the person fall down from a higher place . i really enjoyed myself today but we nv do much today . i guess if u r bored in ur recess , u can msg me or i can call u de . im free 24/7 lols . im sure i wont find u bothering me de .
thanks for today ! ;DD

larry ;DD
god la , i din noe u treat me so nice lols . i nv expect u to write such a post jus for me . i nv even treat u tat nice yet u treat me nice >< ! thanks alot i need tat concern ;D i love you la ! muacks ;X first time writing in post a muacks for a boy LOLS . or isit the 1st person ;X ur nice wont be forgetten de ! i promise u need help , i will do my best to help u . all the best sucuessful person!

OMG i love tis sentence alot alot x33s ;DD

i dun mind nt being ur prince or princess , as long u r by my side . im the most fortunate toad in the world ! i seriously like tis sentence la ;X lols !

today is a great day ;D
tata` x33s

2008-07-05T08:42:00.003+08:00

i guess i still haven learn hw to accept it bah . if carry on like these , i sure keep spoiling ur mood .
i really duno hw to accept the facts tat im replace by him already. ya normally stead call each other baby but there is so many swee words out there , mus it always have to be baby ?
i already lose the most impt in my life yet now i going to lose the tittle too . im stil childish i guess, holding on to tis 'gan' tittle n keep complaining abt it . y mus i be so useless , y mus u be so mean , it jus take 1 week to meet back wif him , ur feeling can go back totally without lefting any for me ? i dun care if im a sparetire or wateva , if 1 day he dun wan u already , u can call me back , i wil be there for u once again [no offence] . i really really wanna stay around u to help u but each time the same situation wil appear again . i tink i really duno who im right now . y cant my parent be more concern over me ? the world is so big yet i onli see u in my eye . 1sided love is toturing i guess , it jus dun matter me anymore . wat matter me more is whether the future u wil get hurt anot . im concern abt u but i mean no harm .

k meeting silent later on at katong to go his sch for some tortise float thingy -.-
mayb i go cut my hair too . k later come back update more .

back to blog ;D
i guess today was a happy day bah . woolala x33s
we play pool den i keep joke abt them, sry guys ;X
des play pool always open the mouth wide lol , so funny la ! can put a pool ball in de ;X
den gt 1 i duno it name , he play pool like wan pang sai like tat la the face expression . wahah !
i keep joke abt them , until they keep notice abt their face expression n closing mouth lols !
went to farrer park n meet ash , eat dinner together n went home .
i din expect ash to take my fone to look for kolyn number n msg her im having fever .
thanks bro , i noe u r worry abt me .
thanks kolyn for ur care , i needed it ;D
i gt fever till 38.9degree -.- wtf rite .
i walk like a walking zombie duno hw to walk properly de .
den home le bath , eat medi den now blogg lols ;D
end bah
tata`

2008-07-05T00:42:00.002+08:00

I was tagged by Kolyn;Baby , Larry;Gay .

1. What's your ambition ? duno nv tink abt it .

2. Who is more important to you ? Friend or girlfriend ?BOTH! ;D

3. Who is the person you trust most ?p4l

4. Do you think you have enough confident ? dun tink so . i duno hw to face reality

5. Who is your idol ? duno who -.-

.6. Do you believe in seeing rainbow after rain ? yes i do hope there is rainbow .

7. What's your goal for this year ? spend as much time wif her as possible b4 going in army

8. Do you believe in eternity love ? i believe i tink -.-

9. Have you broken someone's heart that he/she tried to commit suicide ? dun tink so , i dun have tat power

10. What feeling do you love most ? when both lover onli eye has each other n love each other alot alot . [past]

11. What are the recruirements you wished for the other half ?long hair n everything alike to her .

12. List out 5 of your bestfriends .Kolyn,Silent,Ash,Larry,Jason

13. Discribe yourself now in 3 words .Selfish,Whimp,Dumb

14. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours ?of cos i treasure them

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life ? to spend much time wif my love one. dun wan her sad anymore.

16. Describe the person who tag you in 5 words . Kolyn ; soft-hearted , cute , attractive , lovely , wonderful . larry ; kind , helpful , joker , handsome , kool .

17. What have you done to please yourself ? i onli regrets n i have 1 big regret

18. If time were to rewind , when will you want it to be ? 24o2o8 ? i wont make the same mistake again .

19. What will you want most for your birthday ? nth i jus wan to spend my bday wif her alonebut i dun tink can already .

20. Do you have a dream ? i have dream at nite .

Those who're tagged by me, CONGRATS ! xDD

1. Silent 2. Ash 3. Yihui 4.Dor 5.Cindeh

2008-07-04T22:37:00.002+08:00

i guess i really do regret wat i have decide lol .
seem like i cant do it -.- hw determine im to change lols . i wonder .
i jus hope u wont blame me if really something happen bah . i dun wish too either .
i wil take care of myself u also mus take care of urself ;D

k today went out wif my classmate , caoliang , mattew , jason , jeremy to do project .
caoliang reach amk mrt the eariler n waited all of us .
mattew came after i meet caoliang 15 mins ago .
jason come after i meet mattew 3o mins ago .
jeremy come after i meet jason 1 hrs ago . late king !
power rite ? i nth to say lols .
after finishing the project . jason , jeremy n me went to eat dinner after i see finish doc .
thanks alot of accomany me . the fee cost 48$ wa fking exp le -.-
after tat i went home around 8.30pm .
reach home already , bath finish eat medicine .
i feel so dizzy after eating medicine , play dota from owning also become kinda feeding -.-
sian lols . all the way duno when to back or wat , keep die for nth .
my head feel so dizzy -.- nb !
chatting wif ash in msn right now .

end blog
tata`

2008-07-04T09:24:00.006+08:00

jus wake up , brush teeth wash face .

nth to do jus blog something bah .

mayb u r right , im jus a useless whimp like a gal .

avoiding the facts , run away from reality .

hw can i suppose to treat u like a fren when my feeling toward u is burning ?
i really duno how . u say be fren , but no matter wat it wont be fren de .

u wil be tinking n den neglect me once more cos u dun wan him to be jealous de .

no matter hw angry or sad im , ur little words make me forget everything .

i decide tis cos i tink is best for u .

last time , i made u from alot of fren dote u become no ppl dote .

i dun feel good tat way ok? u cant possible to forget wat i've done for u ?

wat have i done ? other den making u friendless n keep giving u stress n trouble .

seriously im kinda happy ytd night . thanks alot, for spending around 3o mins jus to make me cancel wat i've decide . i duno y im being like tis .

i make myself become like tis , u been trying peacefully tok , harsh tok , logic tok to me yet my feeling for u jus cant stop . mayb i gt my mum de pattern bah , stubborn like cow like tat .

since all along , u wan me to gib up for u cos u find ur mr.right already . i disappear from ur world also the same wat . there is not a need for me to be around u already . i dun wanna be a thick skin guy n stick around when im nt really welcome there . for the first time , im so serious yet fail. i guess in r/s too serious wont help much bah . i rather be a hongster like last time .

at least it nt so painful . i duno wat u tinking , u wan me gib up yet u dun wan me to leave ur world but stay as a fren . partly i cant be a fren cos even though i go down lan to find u , dun u tink u sure treat me differently ? ohya , u say u jus wanna be a good stead n nt calling other swee swee name , but the facts is mattew is jealous when u call me baby but instead he is nt jealous when u call larry laogong . u noe tat urself onli when he mind n since he mind so much , i stay even as a fren also pointless.

i stil rmb wat i write for u [1 thousand words] but friendster gt problem so nv gib u .

baby baby baby ! ;D

i rewrite the comment bah . hais stupid friendster , so many problems .dun worry i wont leave u or end tis story till the day u put a dot on it de ;D

u r my 1 n onli.waaa gandong sia , u did so much haas .i wan the blog to be open to everyone sia ><>

i noe i noob la . but i dun care audi skills le ma ;X wahahaha ! at least the 5th try we couple le ;D weeee~lets train more n wedding ;D

if can . i dun mind dun wedding also . i wont emo le la cos i gt a baby so attractive so nice so intersting ;X

u dun hide from me stuff le hor ><>

3 claps claps claps* for meelo ! weeee` iloveyou,ineedyou,iwanyou!!!

x333s BABY nv leave me uh ;D TAKECARES ! weee`

seem like u have put a dot already . i really duno wat i tinking , hanging on a string . do u noe , u r treating me hot n cold sometime . everytime u treat me better , u wil feel tat u being control by me even when u wif other r/s . u wil still tink i nv treat u as a fren . ya indeed i cant treat u as fren . no matter , thanks for those happy time last time . cherish wat u have noe bah , i noe u grow more mature n awake when u wif him now. im happy for u. takecare when im nt around bah . like ur last post , u din write abt me cos u duno wat to write or jus scare write wrong thing .u should noe better den me , if u really wan me to be around u as a fren den prove to me u really can . instead of jus saying to me u wan to be a fren but yet we r more like a stranger .my heart is numb , i wish it dun pump anymore . tat wil be peaceful .

tata`

2008-07-04T00:18:00.004+08:00

i guess no other choice den to leave her world bah .
it the best thing for her i guess.
without me around , there wont be jealously , wont be trouble for her .
seem she is alright wif it n she is really happy n enjoy now so no point changing ?
alright , takecare .. im nt going to around to assist u or wat le .
thanks for all those happy times n it wil always kept in my heart , no one can replace it .
dun feel gulity or wat pls ! i dun wan u to be like tis .
if u wan find me , can chat wif me in msn or tag me in my blog bah .
i jus a guy who wont change de i guess . sorry for wasting ur time brainwashing my mind .
hope 1 day can see gan mummy n u bah. dun tink so soon
tata`

2008-07-03T21:13:00.006+08:00

SAD HAPPENING !
guess tat my parent wont change bah . i really feel like jus moving out of hse .
i feel much better staying inside prison den in tis house . it's bullshyt`
my mum always call me down to eat cos she dun wanna waste the food .
my mum ; ask me down , u dun wan eat ? a big pack .
i repiled ; dun wan i eat dinner already .
my STEP dad ; gt listen anot , he eat dinner liao .
so sacarstic la -.- pub0r le . i really starting to hate them .
my hand stil bleeds yet nt much ppl care abt it bah . nvm fk care my hand den -.-

today went out wif ash n silent . play pool at katong mall den saw alot of silent's sch mate lols . i keep losing n silent kinda deprove today . he mus be tinking alot . hais
after tat ash leave at 5.3opm to meet his sec fren , me n silent went to roxy square n eat bian mian again yummy ;X after tat sit at staircase , tok alot of thing .
ya tok so much stil around the same dam topic . after tat bring silent to farrer park n went home by cab again -.- fking waste alot of money le . zz

laughs* i tot a gan is alright , din noe even a gan also cant . seem like we r onli normal
fren bah.
kk anything u wan me to be lols . takecare .
fk la ! i feel like jus leave tis world n fk care everything . zzz !
y m i so useless ? y mus i always show out my feeling ? NB , cant i jus keep it in my heart ?
hais . i mus tink abt other first bah , i cant be so selfish le . i guess i dun wanna be wrong again .

end blog
tata`

2008-07-02T16:58:00.003+08:00

went to sch 9-12pm n came back -.-
was slacking around the com till 4 plus when my dad came to the room n say alot of sacarstic words . i guess from a point of time , i learn from my parent those words too -.-
hw come im nt satafised wif my life . i find there is something missing in my life although i once found out wat it is but i nv keep it well enuff . i really hate my parent to say tis kind of thing to me , y mus they always be like tis ? i been trying to change , wash plate after dinner . clean my room . y mus there always be something more ? those nasty word u said to me , i wil rmb de.
yes mayb i change alot alot . even i myself is lost in the middle of changing in life . everything jus messed up all of the sudden . i jus cant stop blaming myself for nt doing my part to my loves one . such a attractive n cute gal should nt be wif me , im who ? im a nobody . im jus a guy who irratited ppl , who bring ppl stress n trouble , y i always tink so highly of myself ?
those words are really harsh but it kinda wake me up alittle . i wan to be a somebody if 1 day n make my parent proud instead of them looking down at me .

edit post if there's any updates .

weee guess my mood is better already (:
jus stay like tis , n STOP fking changing ! thanks .
i miss my sec sch life , as i work as a waiter for the 1st day , ppl praise me good waiter . wahaha bhb LOL . im happy le , weee ~ although the pay is onli 5.5 per hrs but working wif alot of fren is so much fun la . it like always there is no work den we wil meet out n go out to eat steamboat , swensen n go kbox sing . we can go kbox every week like 2-3 time in a row. enjoy those day but it all turn out bad in de end . we go join wat lanjia0x gangs . all not prison now , or probation -.-
dumb sia ! i hate probation life ! i wan free myself ! RAWRS
ok meeting baby tml i guess . I MISS BUBBLE ALOT (:
rather miss bubble den miss baby sia ;X
kk bubble tml here i come x33s
end blog
tata`

2008-07-01T11:02:00.004+08:00

A BIG THANKS TO ALL THOSE PPL WHO CARE FOR ME !
really thanksful lols . a big thanks to my mummy n da gu , they finally notice me ! x33s
i have a raining session for 3o mins ytd , i feel better after it .
there is stil ppl concern abt me so i cant be like tis foreva .
guys , thanks alot ! i wil try to change myself de . although quite alot of ppl say im nt myself for quite a long time le . p4l is the onli blood bros i have . no one can make us separate , if someone do i wil nt gib chance to tat person . the worst is jus another oxy in bunk like tat . i mean wat i say , dun try to be funny . no one can bully my p4l n baby de .
later meeting silent, ash, xian (:
i wil edit the post later after i come back .

back !
ya after i read silent de blog , i fount tat quite true la (: GUYS tat reading my blog . plsplspls cherish ur love ones , once it gone . it hard to come back already . im once a foolish ,too protective, nv trust her, tink too highly of myself de guy cos i gt so much confidence tat it wil last foreva n neglect alot of tings.
it's my greatest regret but it a learning experience to me . i dun wan u all to be like me , so cherish wat u all have b4 it gone . like bathing , it may seem normal but when i went into prison , i onli can bath once per day n onli wif soap . no shampoo . zz ! so bath properly laughs*
today went to roxy sqaure , play pool n eat bian mian ! yummy la , so nice the bian mian , i intro u all go eat lols ;D im a pig , dun blame me ;X today i enjoyed myself lols . although i reach home late by 5 mins again n kena nag by my mum n dad -.-
duno y always kena say by them , i feel so sad .
no matter wat , i will cherish wat i have from now onward . i dun wanna regret n hurt again !
thanks JonathanTan bro ! wat u say really make me tink through .
jus have to wait for someone to accept u . dun need go find ppl de . ya i also nt ready for a r/s
i need to learn alot of skills first ;X n most impt , i wan earn big $ when i grow up so no worries abt my life n my parent to have some good life after taking a child like me so bad de .
silent , ash , xian . thanks for the day !
xian if u willing to join us , it fine to come find us lols . p4l more den willing ;X
weirdface , dun gan chiong lols . i stil saving $ for ur present although i duno wat to buy -.-
end blog
tata !

2008-06-30T10:24:00.007+08:00

*wisper to diary* dun peep ! ;X
my heart really miss miss miss those old times , but i noe i cant be like last time le . cos ur boy wil get jealous all these . i noe u love him lots , plus he's swee la . hope we meet out soon lols (:
although i noe u will nt meet me tat often le . i hope u understand im really trying to change n understand u more . i jus wake up n keep tink abt the past , duno wat the fk i tinking also . zz !
baby , i hope u wont do silly thing jus to prove to him tat u really love him lots . im really going crazii for the first time ! no one else gt the power to make me become like tis . ahh ! my life is all messed up . tml i gt no lesson , see if u can meet me lols . i noe u dun wan him to jealous so u onli wil go out wif him , like last time . i hope my decison is right n he wil cherish u , if nt i really wont forgib him . i have no regret choosing u instead of fren n having u in my arms . like i say b4 in the past , even u in a r/s i also wil wait for u . i will be anything u wan me to be , n my promise wont be a lies . i once make u touched b4 , i trust tat i can make u again . i noe u stil concern for me , thanks doh .
all the best ! x33s

kk i come back from sch den post .

k back from sch , i seriously mean no harm -.- sorry tat i irritated u . i already say i dun ask u again le , so stop saying i demend it .
i already say i treat u like a close fren , believe it anot i cant help it . i noe im bhb , but i tok to u after we quarrel once , all i say de thing is getting more n more serious , i dun find myself bhb anymore . i mean no harm to make u n him ok ! dun fking mistaken me .
i morning call u all these nt cos i tink i gt chance hor , is i jus wanna be someone to be able to help u . i cant help much now so i help in morning calls all these . i jus wanna be someone around u to be able to help u , assist u when u needed . be ur listening ear if u feel like complaining onli . i dun even dare to hope for a chance cos i noe it wil hurt alot more ! i noe i make myself until like tis , i nv blame anyone b4 tat my siutation become like tis except for myself . i already say i dun mind being anything as long as i can help u . i gt no rights to say anything but pls understand hw i feel . i jus dun wan u to be treating me like a stranger , u say u treat me like a close fren but yet i find it , we r worst den a stranger . hope u understand n dun mistaken me already . i noe he's a good guy n he treat u well wif alot of suprise .
but if 1 day , he hurt u . den pls dun blame me for being nasty . i can be nasty too , not onli u . sorry to waste ur time on changing my mind n making ur mood spoil . really sorry . i wont stop u from doing anything u wan to do already from now onward . jiayou kolyn in everything n may u last foreva wif him . sorry for causing u so much trouble n stress . takecare all the best to ur everything in life . thanks alot

2008-06-29T21:31:00.004+08:00

hello all (:
today early in the morning , my mum call me at 8.3oam , to prepare fork n spoon for the breakfast -.- after i prepare already , i went to bath .
i eat finish , went out around 9.05 am . i msg baby n morning call her to wake up .
i reach her house around 10.20+ am wif 2 little baby hamster (:
although the hamster was wet n smelly , but stil cute la ;X tahan abit la baby .
do take care of them pls , thanks (:
silent , daniel , larry , mattew , yihui n bingfu all came to lan .
daniel went to work at 3.30pm n mattew went to work at 6 plus i tink .
the remaining of us , smoke , chat , slack , joke abt yihui LOL .
we keep di sia0x yihui , she tot bingfu wil help her , in de end he came also di sia0x her ;X
wahaha . funny la today . silent , larry n me went to take cab ar 8.40pm .
im late for 5 mins lols . poor silent have to spend more on cab fare ><
sorry bro ! but i jus cant bare to leave tat place actually . laughs*
k reach home den post tis (:
home swee home x33s

a little secert of myself (: wanted to buy ... in de end i have no right to buy so nv buy le -.-
ahya nvm , i really hope i dun cause anymore trouble for u . zz ! i feel bad to ruin ur happiness but i feel jealous too -.- wtf i tinking , i duno lols . i jus wanna cherish u . seriously la, i see alot of gal but i jus dun seem to find them pretty or attractive . zzz ! i dun mind being anything as long as im by ur side to help u . even if u marriage already, i also wanna be a close fren to u will do .
i duno la , i wont allow anyone to bully u de . i hope he wil cherish u . zzz ! but i noe u also wont wan me to do anything toward him even if he hurt u cos u too concern for ppl le . nvm (:
tat wat make u a nice person sometime lols ! i onli find u cute n attractive , other gal all cmi -.-
i jus going to turn gay i guess . laughs* ! takecare bah

end blog

2008-06-28T21:24:00.002+08:00

Today is a fine day (:
meet out wif silent to find my cousin at eunos .
take something from her , chat awhile den when to meet ash at bunk .
saw dor , cindeh , corin , latte there (:
after tat homies's group come n we went to parklane play pool .
latte followed us , ash n silent teach her hw to play pool lols !
after tat we play till 7 plus , all close table .
ash , silent n me went to eat . the rest went home .
i went home after eating finish (:
tiring day ><
end blog
tata`

2008-06-28T14:13:00.009+08:00

nb turtle , so many quiz to do ! i swear i feel like biting u baby (: pretty pls ?

heres goes the quiz -.-
A] People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs & replace any questions that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves .
B] Tag 5 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse . These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by . Continue this game by sending it to other people .

TAGGED BY : Kolyn Lim Yu Zhen{baby}
{1} If you could migrate to other countries . which country would it be ?
japan , aus (:
{2} If you can have a dream come true , what would it be ?
to be sucuessful in life wif a lovely wife (:
{3} What type of girls are you attracted to ?
cute , long hair , noe hw to make them more pretty n i see her onli wil smile de (:
{4} what is your favourite deserts ?
all i like la , greedy ;x
{5} Would you rather have 2 close friends or guys around you ?
close fren , r/s is stressful .
{6} Current favourite song ?
Here without you.
{7} Ever encountered the supernatural ?
wat the fk is tat ? stupid quiz !
{8} How far would you go for a friend ?
As far as tat fren wan. rofl , actually i duno wat the question mean -.-
{9} Is there anything what made you unhappy these days ?
Yes alot , i wanna complain (:
{10} Are you in love or being love now ?
in love. blah~
{11} Do you dislike anyone at the momment .
i tink so -.-
{12} Do you like yourself ?
yes . i love myself alot alot ! muacks muacks (:
{13} What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is ?
cute , silly action gal n always shoot me -.-
{14} Do you gossip about your friends .
sometimes.
{15} What's the best thing that has happened to yourself so far ?
personal (:
{16} Are you worried about anything ?
yes but nt everything is in my control -.-
{17} What are your hobbies ?
blog , msn .
{18} What type of friends do you like ?
dun betray de !
{19} What do you plan to do now ?
plan to finish quiz b4 going out -.- si baby !
{20} What type of movie do you enjoy the most ?
all movie tat i enjoy (:

The 5 people to do this are ..
-Ash
-Silent
-Larry
-Yihui
-Dor

Qns : The person who tagged you is?
Ans : Kolyn Lim yu zhen .
Qns : What's your relationship with him/her ?
Ans : Close Fren
Qns : Your 5 impression of him/her ?
Ans : cute , mature , silly , bully , attractive .
Qns : The most memorable thing he/she has done for you ?
Ans : When i complaining abt something , she bought me tissue n panadol (:
Qns : If he/she becomes your lover , you will... ?
Ans : i wil love her til de end , i do hope i dun make the same mistake -.-
Qns : If he/she becomes your lover , things he/she has to improve on ?
Ans : nth , she is perfect jus the way she is .
Qns : If he/she becomes your enemy , the reason will be ?
Ans : dun tink so -.-
Qns : The most desirable thing you want to do for him/her now is ?
Ans : it's beyong my control (: so no point ansing
Qns : Your overall impression on him/her ?
Ans : She is so attractive ;x
Qns : How do you think people around you feel about you ?
Ans : how the fk i noe ? u ask them la -.-
Qns : The character you love of yourself are ?
Ans : stubborness (:
Qns : On the contrary , the character you hate yourself are ..?
Ans : lazy n wont cherish thing . zz
Qns : The most ideal person you want to be is ?
Ans : dun be lazy n cherish thing !
Qns : For the people who care & like you , say something about them .
Ans : thanks for the concern , i wil change myself (:

Qns : pass the quiz to 10 people .
1. Silent
2. Ash
3. Fate
4. Larry
5. Dor
6. Cindeh
7. Mushroom
8. Latte
9. Yihui
10. Beata

Qns : who is number 6 having relationship with ?
Ans : DKRM .
Qns : is 9 a male of female ?
Ans : female (:
Qns : If 7 &10 are together , will it be a good thing ?
Ans : i dun tink so
Qns : How about 5 & 8 ?
Ans : i dun tink so
Qns : What's number 2 studying about ?
Ans : Poly course
Qns : When was the last time you chatted with number 3 ?
Ans : a few days ago
Qns : Is number 4 single ?
Ans : yeahs
Qns : Talk something casually about number 1 .
Ans : he's my bro (:

SECOND QUIZ ! TAGGED BY : Kolyn Lim Yu Zhen
Name 20 people whom you can think of right now . Don't read the questions till you've named 20 people . At the end of this , choose 5 people to do this (:

1.Beata
2.Silent bro
3.Ash bro
4.Fate
5.Latte
6.Cindeh
7.Dor
8.Mushroom
9.Jeremy
10.Kolyn baby
11.Yihui
12.Dreamiie
13.Wan kin
14.Bobbie
15.Harris
16.Jonas
17.Dzq
18.Jason
19.Jay
20.Gillian

-How did you meet 14 ? ;Bobbie
In bunk.
-What would you do if you've never met 1 ;Beata
i tink sure meet , cos she's my cousin (:
-What if 9 & 20 dated ? ;Jeremy , Gillian
dun tink so
-Will 16 & 17 date ? ; Jonas , Dzq
mayb ;X 16 can act gay .
-Decribe 3 ; Ash
a bro of mine tat i cherish (:
-Describe 7 ; Dor
she's my weird face (:
-Do you know any of 12's family member ? ; Dreamiie
i duno anyone lols .
-What would you do if 18 confess to you that he/she likes you ? ; Jason
wow , tat wil be a suprise .
-Who is 9 going out with ? ;Jeremy
hw the fk i noe ? ask him lols .
-when was the last time you talk to 13 ? ; Wan kin
i tink ytd in msn .
-Who is 2's favourite singer ? ; Silent
ers , silent ur favourite singer is ?
-Would you ever date 4 ? ; Fate
NO !
-Would you ever date 1 ? ; Beata
we're cousin(:
-Is 19 single ? ; Jay
nt sure single anot ,he kinda hongster ;X
-Would you ever be in relationship with 11 ? ; Yihui
No
-School of 3 . ; Ash
In Temasek Poly .
-Where does 6 live ? ; Cindeh
woodland .
-What is your favourite thing of 5 ? ; Latte
lent me good listening ear when she ownself gt the same problem ):
-Have you ever seen 10 naked ?
nt ur prob (: dun KAYPO !

Do This Quiz Silent, Ash, Larry, Dor , Mushroom

woah ! im done -.-
tired tired !

2008-06-28T01:41:00.006+08:00

01. What's more important? Money Or Love?
Love. though im not ready!
02. Do you ever turn you cell phone off?
ya , sometimes when no battery.
03. What happened at 10.00am today?
I was in school.
04. When did you last cry?
personal (:
5. What is your favourite thing to eat with peanut butter?
probably bread or biscuit?
06. What do you want in your life right now?
Early discharge ! her to be happy always .
07. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put up your hood?
i rarely bring umbrella nor hood
08. What is your favourite thing to have on your bed?
Pillows n blankie.
09. What bottom are you wearing now?
Red top n Spongbob Boxer (:
10. What is the nicest text in your inbox say?
personal (:
11. Do you tend to make a relationship complicated?
No. Simplicity is the best :D
12. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
No.
13. What was the last movie you caught?
shutter . same movie as her ;o
14. What are you proud of?
proud tat i gt p4l ! ;D
15. What does the oldest text message in your inbox say?
long msg nite from baby (:
16. If you have a chance to migrate where will you migrate to?
anywhere other den singapore.
17. Do you have any nicknames?
xMEElo
18. What does your last received text message say?
Internet lah . kuku . Pekchek . Call me bah .
19. What time did you go to bed last night?
3 plus .
20. Are you currently happy?
veri happy (:
21. Who gives you best advice?
p4l n yihui
22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
no
23. Who did you talk to on phone last night?
no one.
24. Is anything bugging you right now?
nth , jus feeling scare.
25. What/who was the last thing/person to make you laugh?
nth chattin on fone make me laugh quite abit.
26. Do you wear toe socks?
No.
27. Who was the last person you missed a call from?
KolynBaby i guess .
28. Have you ever had your heartbroken?
Yeah. quite alot of times.
29. What annoys you most in a person?
Suddenly change of attitude.
30. Do you have a crush on anyone?
No.
31. Have you ever done cocaine?
wat's that -.- duno
32. What is the colour of your room?
White.
33. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollar?
i dun tink so , i wil keep the money for myself (:
34. Do you believe in the saying “talk is cheap”?
kinda cheap . who also can tok -.-
35. Who was the last person to lie in your bed?
personal (:
36. Who was the last person to hug you?
personal (:
37. Did anyone see the last person you kissed?
quite a few i tink -.-
38. Do you have a life?
i dun tink so.
39. Have you ever think someone died, when they really didnt?
i dun tink tis way.
40. What is the reason behind your profile song?
it wat i mean (:
41. Who was the last person you saw in your dream?
forget la .
42. Last time you smiled?
Right now (:
43. Have you changed this year?
ya. i tink so
44. What are you listening right now?
Music
45. Are you talking to someone when you doing this?
yes.
46. Do you walk with your eyes open or closed?
Open . stupid quiz -.-
47. Is there a quote you live by?
nth is impossible .
48. Do you want someone you cant have?
yes -.-
49. Have you ever played an instrument?
Guitar,Drum,Piano.
50. What was the worst idea you have had in this week?
duno. quarrel wif someone i love most ?
51. What were you doing last night at 11.00pm?
forget already la -.- u tink i god ah
52. Are you happy with your love life right now?
Hai hao .
53. What song best describe your love life?
Here Without You
54. Does the person know that you like him/her?
she noe but ... (:
55. Who always make you laugh?
Ppl around me (:
56. Do you speak other language other than English?
of cos , im smart !
57. Favourite website?
Blogger.com
58. What your middle name?
personal (:
59. What are you doing tomorrow?
Go eunos meet my cousin n chat (: she rawks !
60. What do you think you are like?
human
61. Who will you choose to die with?
Anyone .
62. Where have you been today?
Sch.
63. What game do you play often?
Audition, dota.
64. Who are you missing right now?
Someone.
65. If you have to choose between friend n loves, who will you choose?
duno depends.
66. What are you doing right now?
Doing tis dumb quiz.
67. Which primary school are you from?
SengKang Primary, Jiemin Primary
68. Name 3 colours that you like?
Red , Sky blue , Black
69. What emotion you like to show?
Any emotion i can show.
70. What is your life to you?
Jus a life.
71. If you have something troubling you, what will you do?
Find a way to solve it .
72. Who did you last chat in msn today?
Ash . p4l huat !
73. Who you admire most?
personal (:
74. Which month are you born in?
Dec BABY ! ;D
75. How are you feeling right now?
Happy n bored of the quiz .
76. What is the time now?
2.15am
77. Where are you now?
My room.
78. What colour did you use to dye hair?
Goldish yellow . Copper Red .
79. What is the highest alcoholic percentage you have had consume?
On the rock , 5o % , china white wine , also 5o%
80. What do you do when you are moody?
Play dota.
81. At which age you wish to get marry?
Duno wan get married anot .
82. Who is more important to you? Girlfriend or friends?
Depends hw much i love them. for now , frens .
83. Do you think you have enough confident?
i tink so , i kinda bhb ;x
84. Who is the person you trust the most?
p4L. we tok abt everything
85. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain?
ya.
86. If you have a dream come true, what would it be?
Be a sucessful person n earn alot of $ .
87. What is your goal for this year?
Pass my course.
88. Do you believe in eternity love?
I kinda believe cos i stil hold on to it .
89. What feeling do you love most?
Being wif her , seeing her silly action ><
90. Do you really think its Global Warming now?
i duno.
91. What feeling you hate the most?
kena played around .
92. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
nt all i guess
93. Do you believe in god?
Ya. i tink so -.-
94. Who cares for you most?
Parents n p4l .
95. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
Family n ... (:
96. What will you bring when you fight?
Last time i wil bring pocket knife . now jus myself .
97. What have you done regretted doing in your whole life?
nv cherish -.-
98. What would you feel that everyone no longer cares for you?
lonely , sad , may go emo n dun tok much for weeks .
99. What if your stead two-timed you?
Break . depends .
100.What will you do if you lie to your friend?
Nth to hide (:

Instructions:Remove 1 question from the above add in your own personal question, and bold it.Next list 8 people whom you would want them to do this, at the end of the post.Notify them in their tag box that he/she has been tagged.

1 . Silent
2 . Ash
3 . Dor
4 . Long leg
5 . Latte
6 . Cindeh
7 . Wan kin
8 . Yihui

2008-06-27T17:12:00.004+08:00

today was a unlucky day bah i guess -.-
i wake up suddenly n i take my fone to look at the time cos i cant really get into slp , scare cant morning call -.- i saw the time is 4.44am . tat wat my 1st day in prison room de number 444 -.-
fking unlucky la . so suddenly i duno hw i went to slp again , but i jus jump up from bed after the alarm sound at 6.3oam. after i cant get into slp le , i on com to rot n den till 7.3oam i go prepare go sch . after sch i rmb i gt appointment wif probation officer at 1 pm , so i take bus home den take another bus to SLF buliding but halfway there , my probation officer call say change the appointment to next week same timing , jus tel me 15 mins eariler . zzz i already half way there .
waste time sia , the weather fking hot . hais -.- after tat went home till now , rot rot rot -.-

ok today wil be the day , me n mushroom as gans long leg n fat leg -.-
27o6o8 !! may we be as gan for a long long time (:

i guess i nv love the wrong person , i seriously nv feel nt worth le . sometimes i even felt veri happy waiting -.- guess yaomin say {waiting is a bless} kinda right bah . i jus now saw wat she type for her didi in friendster, find out tat she's mature . mayb yihui is right , she finally noe wat she really wan , tat y she go for it . i lose her , cant blame anyone but myself . i nv cherish her when she is with me . wat to do ? jiayous in ur studies bah , i do hope u wont retain tis year. if anything u duno abt fotoshop , i can help if i noe hw. cherish mattew bah , i wont forgib u if u dun.
i onli treat u like a close fren , wether u gt treat me tat way anot , nt impt . i wil be there for u if need me , my fone is open for u 24/7 . all the best !

end blog
tata`

2008-06-26T23:33:00.003+08:00

today went out wif silent n ash cos i gt no sch .
we play pool , eat , slack , see them smoke { quit smoking la -.-} n i went home by cab again -.-
i been spending quite alot of $ tis 2-3 days lols .
i guess i have to save too . dun wan spend too much .
silent , enjoy wat i have sent u ;O
takecare of ur bloody leg , or i wil make it worst lols !
ash , silly boy keep finding excuse to make urself feel happy .
jus do wat ur heart really wan la , but seriously i dun tink u should risk a 5 years friendship { wif a gal somemore ! } no matter wat i wil support u de (:

dor ; weird face (: lets meet out soon bah , last long wif ur boy .
anything can tel me although i may nt be helpful but i dun tink im useless bah .
weird face all the way o7o7o7 !
takecare .

i guess if i knew the situation eariler , i tink i wil nt go meet p4l bah .
dun emo le , cheer up (:
i actually wanted suprise u on sunday , in de end i tel u again -.-
see u on sunday , for awhile is alright le (:
dun sad le bah , best fren baby (:

tata`

2008-06-25T23:06:00.004+08:00

k thanks yihui for advising me , some of the thing u say i already know le .
i dun wan to ruin her happiness also . dun worry, i wil leave her de .
dun wan her to feel bad . im glad i gt memories . i wil keep it in my heart .
last long !

xMEElo is proudly to announce im staying single for a long time ! {happy}
im going to cherish all those frens , bros , gans tat i nv cherish for the past time !
i finally tink through , i will learn tis mistake i done n wil nt do it again .
thanks alot , i duno if i can pass u the fotoshop anot .

ash ; dun emo le , dun worry . someday she wil be touched by u de . if u believe in it , jus carry on
since u already waited for 5 years ! although nt counted waited la , but ur feeling increase alot for her within tis 5 years . i wil support u all the way de , tis world always wont go the way u wan it to be , tis is life , jus accept it bah (: bros all the way x33s !

silent ; thanks alot for all the advise n pei me all the way when i feel down n happy , i seriously wil cherish u de ! no matter wat , i wil support u de . thanks for the $4 dollar today . it mean alot to me . bros all the way x33s !

p4L all the way !
end blog
tata`

2008-06-25T20:54:00.003+08:00

okok heres the ans for the exam (:
cindeh gt 1oo marks lols . grats clever baobao (:
baby gt 5o marks . nt bad uh (:

ok went to meet silent n ash eat dinner at farrer park. take cab home cos silent sponser me 4$ jus to spend more time wif me , thanks alot . it mean alot to me lols . i enjoy today seriously !! ;D we p4l dun cos of gal emo-ing bah. nt worth it de , we should tok more abt ourselve lols . anyway in cab , i tink alot of thing . i guess i wil be doing something other den wait wait wait for miracle to happen . jiayou ash , silent n me ! p4l all the way x33s .

2008-06-24T17:43:00.002+08:00

ok lets do some hardcore exam ;X
if reader can do tis question within 1 min.
pls tag me the ans thanks .
i wil be posting the ans for tis exam tml (:
so stay tune uh reader !
do ans thanks thanks (:

2008-06-24T01:00:00.003+08:00

happy 4 mths baby !! x33s
baby all the way , nth can change us (:
seem like today u wil be meeting mattew at ur hse , dun tink can meet u le .
study hard bah ! jiayous (:
spare sometime to meet me if possible .

later i meeting silent after i wake up i wil go prepare le. silent's toes vein burst , wtf rite !
i going to pei him go see doctor also or mayb jus eat breakfast together .
den after i going sch le . kk takecare bro , bro 4eva , gal wateva !