• Thursday, June 12, 2008
@ 10:56 PM
LOVE cant be explain de . u can tel everyone u nv have feeling for tat person , but sooner or later , u wil found out tat person stand some place in ur heart already. after the day he came back n msg u , u 2 been msg-ing everytime i called u , everytime i meet u , everytime i ask u .dun have to be guilty or wat cos u noe urself best n seriously , u need to noe him better . of cos when the time come , nth's right anymore .he's a good guy , i seriously dun mind u 2 together already .i jus feel totally useless tat we been together for 4 mths or so . after u reach ur limit n alot of things happen , u reply me , ans me all totally different . it's like u wanna me to be jealous or wat but anyway u leave me when i need u the most , ur concern is like a biggest thing to me yet now u force urself to stop concern abt me . even if u feel like msg-ing me , or mayb nt u wont already .i can seriously swear to god , my tinking wil be true . now wat i can do , is to trust u , learn hw to gib in to u , dun attitude toward u but i do hope there's an outcome . i can cfm mattew wil have been kinda swee toking to u . baby pls sleep well dun tink abt things already . do u noe wat u have become ? u r nt urself anymore , i cant see a cheerful wawa le , u r like old time acting ur happy .seriously it pain my heart seeing u , feeling u like tis . y i always cause u so much pain n stress .u say u wil walk wif me through my parent stress when i say i feel like giving up but my attitude make u explore . im sorry serious . i dun mean to make u like tis , i dun wan u hate me .i nv ask for more , i onli wanna see u , be by ur side . even 1 hrs per week or mth , is fine wif me .as long as u willing to see me . im most happy abt it .i called u , u wil resting on bed charging fone , msg-ing wif him .n u wil saying 'idiot' n laughs* when u reading his msg . i was telling myself , dun u treated me like tis last time also ?alright ,glad u stil can laughs a little here n there ;D ! y mus my life be like tis .glad u enjoy the donut ;Dim kinda sad when u lost maomao n star ring .things lost stil alright can buy back de, but when i lost sight of u in my world , tat a big thing .hw i wish i can buy back time , i wil do wateva it take to keep u by my side .my stubborness is the key to sucess but it may make u tink im a bugg to u again ._.sometimes i wanna msg u , also scare u wil tink im bug .but when i msg u , u hardly reply .nvmgod is giving me test to test hw much u mean to me , n i wil prove to god n U tat nth can replace u in my small heart . love tat cant take the test is nt love .i wil pass the test de , although tis is the hardest for now .i wil keep trying ! u mus gib me chance too . end~
