Milo need serious help now !! urgrent.
i duno wat i do or eat wrong. i suddenly become veri serious in anything.
i cant take joke nor i can joke now. mayb partly is cos of my parent but
i need some ways to cure it! i dun wish to be tis me anymore.
anyone gt tips to cure tis pls tell me by any way u can contact me thanks.
helphelphelp!

My mood tis few day was so-so. Emo, envy, jealous, angry, happy. all kind of feeling.
ya happy's the last. my life now is nt the life i wan. everything's nt in place.
everything is oppsite of wat i wan. Fkit! i did enjoy myself ytd wif aos. belated happy bday gio !:D aos.saddistic. ya have some laughter here n there. i was enjoying myself till i forget the timing i need to reach home by 9pm. when i look at the time, it's alr 8.50pm. woah, i was dam shocked den i rush home by cab. i jus finish taking the ice-cream n drink to the table n have to rush home ): nv enjoy it. ya at night have some dota game wif aos. i see a big diff in my life when i in ... n when im nt... though i regret i join... but my life were much much happy tat time. everyone treat me like their own. unlike now, always i go out wif them. i will have a feeling im nt a part of them. everyone gt topic to tok abt to each other. im always quiet n listen onli. nvm (:

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i always tot u were the 1 tat understand me well. ya i really thankful tat u always def me when i burst out n ppl complaining abt me. im gladful. but the way u treat me is so diff from last time. last time i ask u go out, at least 1-3 time, 1 time accept. now i ask EVERYTIME reject. wtf is tis, pei me go out also cannot? nvm.
u should know i gt some area factor in my life tat's impt to me. 1 of it is dota.
always i diff team wif u radar n fate or some other pros. it always mega de. yes i did mega n tat's onli once. tat onli once. u all keep mega me 2-3 time or more alr.
u know i always dam depress over dota skill yet u still dun wan end when i ask?
u fk care wat i say? n when u diff team, u ask radar to end onli. den me le? invis ah. we know each other for abt 3-4 years or more alr. u been always so nice n understanding. i know mayb u have reach ur limit n u dun wanna tahan me anymore. if u understand me u should know hw impt is dota bro fren to me. when i need some attention the most, u fk care me. u majiam heck care me. i tok wat u reply -.- , other ppl tok to u. okok de. i been changing yes my attitude is bad. but still anything u need or wat, i sure help de wat. it take 2 hands to clap. if u will jus nt act like u heck care den it will nv happen tis way. i duno wtf u tinking. i feel dam sian alr. if u started to heck me n dislike me. jus tell me straight. n if u still treat me like a blood bro den do something abt it. i keep joke yet no one laugh. nvm , when at fault. u always dun side me. see the diff between a new fren xue n a blood bro. it's nt abt outing tat mean impt. it abt the way u treat things.
nvm i know i type so much, u also may nt be reading it. nvm fk care it ba.

cousin!
meet out soon ba :D i got so much to complain LOL ! jk =p

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Being Alone While you may act like you don't care on the outside, on the inside your biggest fear is being alone. You can be quite shy and reserved. You feel like a lot of times people don't really see the real you. You're afraid that no one will really truly love you, and that you will be alone for the rest of your life. On the inside you are great person, so just remember that and don't let your shy nature get the best of you! If you don't want to be a lone then you need to make an effort to be with someone. Show the people that you care about that you really love them, and chances are someone will always be there, even if you think they won't.
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Hi everyone :D
thanks for those tat still can read till tis post cos it been veri long since i post.
so if u still can read tis post tat mean u been coming into my blog n check whether gt new post anot.
ok right now, i been finding alot of job to do. make myself busy dun wanna do nth den tink alot.
i jus finish watching a veri old show 鹿鼎记. veri touching , veri sad, veri happy all kind of emotion also inside. i really envy the main character wei xiao bao. nt cos he gt 7 wife but cos he live his life to the fullest. everyday happy-go-lucky but serious in doing wat he need to do.

ok let me intro everyone alittle of myself.
i may look like a person without emotion, dun show much emotion but actually im veri emotional. once i read someone's blog, tat post say something like tis. 'dun close up urself, or u end up hurting urself ' now i finally know wat does it means. i been closing up myself too much tat i duno hw to express myself anymore. wateva i do, i may make ppl mistaken. my choice of word, my action. i been promise i wil change but it jus seems tat i cant.
i guess as i lose in so many area, it jus hard for 1 area to fix it back. [onli p4l knows]
i crave for alot of attention from diff area, like frens, parent, n alot more but i know wat i wan, don't mean i will get it.

this post is abit of myself. may look naggy but if u dun wanna read it, it's fine (:
thanks all for coming into milo's blog.

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