• Thursday, July 10, 2008
@ 12:40 AM
tis is a long naggy post , if dun wan read is fine wif me .
y meelo is a fickle minded person ! grrs . everytime angry already , tink back y m i so angry ?
i already say i accept n dun mind . okok slaps meelo* cant be angry de .
it's normal for teenager in r/s to be like tis . come to tink back , i really dun mind wat she's doing in the past , now or even the future . i jus feel uneasy bah . i maybe over protective but it all jus concern n dun mean harm . y mus my attitude always be so bad -.- y cant i be romantic ? y mus these bad point be those point tat u hated most . no matter wat , i say i will change myself again n again yet i nv . i really look down on meelo . useless sia , y so easy hot-tempered . y always gib attitude when she treat u good or concern for u . grrs , i dislike myself like tis . guys , is there any way to change attitude or become more romantic , pls tel me if u all noe hw cos meelo seriously wanna change . i dun wan jus say say . all along in my heart , i stil feel veri happy cos of ur little words of concern . even if jus 1-2 short msgs , it really brighten up my day . i may nt be the swee talker but wat i type here is wat i wan to say . nobody noes , wat wil happen tml . so cherish wat u have now b4 u all regret . u r my greatest regret , i dun care if u read tis post already , u going to start topic n quarrel or avoid me . i jus wanna type all out already . i really really hope i can be something in ur life , i wan to be somebody in ur life . dun care is fren , gans , stead or wateva .
i wan help u when u gt trouble , i wan lent u my shoulder if u sad , i wan lent u my ear when u need to complain , i wan to do anything jus to be around u . i mayb like xiao xin so attitude n not romantic but at least u r urself when u r around me last time . now i tink u cant even treat me as a normal fren cos u scare u tok more will hurt me more or jus gib me false hope . seriously if u say u dun mind being a fren wif me y still cant look at me sunday ? we onli tok 2 lines till larry came den we chat more . tis is call a fren ? i noe it hard to be normal fren also , i do hope we can keep trying . i dun care wat my outcome will be , at least i wanna feel tat we really did try . u r like pei pei in the show , so pretty n cute like an angel in my heart . i tink if i nv even change myself , i will nv dare to hope for anything . 161 days n still counting . tis is the first time i still waiting when the gal is in a r/s n do so much thing already . thanks for getting in my heart when there is so many out there , i gonna keep u in my heart . now u may feel everyone is envy of u , u feel everyone is jealous of u . i guess kinda true bah , no one jealous or envy u in the past . im facing the reailty n i noe it gonna be a hardcore thing but i wont gib up . i wanna noe u better b4 i can make any decison . i really wan see wat kind of gal r u . i hope u wont disappoint me n become someone like wat ur ahma say u in the past . sorry if i mention ur ahma cos i suddenly recall of her . dun care la , i noe ur ahma view of u is a comfirm wrong cos she duno u well enuff . it take a lifetime to noe a person well enuff , i guess i will use my lifetime to noe u well . i wanna do alot of thing but i scare u may tink im irrtating again . everytime i msg u , i see ur reply like dun feel like msg-ing me like tat . i guess ur life now left a few ppl tat u can concern too bah . mummy , mattew , yihui , larry . i dun count myself in cos im nt those impt person in ur life . i wonder sometimes when u do something , will u suddenly tot of me anot ? i wonder sometimes wat others say to u , will u tink of me anot ? if gt , im really happy lo . now everything ur fone rings , ur first tot is mattew . 3-4 mths ago , when ur fone first ring should be me bah {bhb}.
if u need any help , pls tel me really . i will do my best to help u as much as i can . im always a call away n my fone is 24/7 for u n onli u . i will takecare of myself de , i duno y i jus feel weaker n weaker each day . even i eat medi already also i feel tat way . hope nth happen ba cos there is still alot of thing i wanna do wif u . when i grow up , i do hope i can earn money n den buy 2 ticket n bring u to japan to have fun . although tis year my bday wish is nt gonna happen n i guess tis year de bday wont be tat fun ba . ok let me use my first bday wish today ba.
1. meelo wish tat kolyn lim can be wif mattew lee foreva
i left 2 more wishes . next time gt chance den i tink abt wat i wan ba (:
i dun care i need to do hw much thing , ur smile can change my world . i do hope u will always smile .
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tata`Labels: 161 days n counting
